I'm sorry! sounds kinda cliche i know, but i don't know what else to say. Lets just put this problem into daddy's hand. Let him handle this,only he have the solution to a million problems that lies ahead of us.

Today, during choir serving time, a few of them spoke to me regarding guys/boyfriend... It's not about two halves coming together to become one, instead it's two Whole coming together to become a more complete whole.And it also only work when we see ourselves as a whole because he (daddy) is in our life. I have to agree to one thing they said about:"do everything you want to do when you're single, if not when you get attached,you'll have to think of the other party." Now since i'm attached, i'll just make good use of it. But it's still quite difficult though, to have to think of another party especially when there's so many more things, you've yet to discover.

Overall, i'm still sorry for disappointing you again and again. I've handled all this attitudes and problems to daddy god already, i'm believing him for a better person that i can be.