Tuesday, May 26, 2009
His 4 handprints in my Life today..
My Abba father showed His footsteps many times in my life today!!His FIRST Hand print in my life today
Firstly, I was rushing my last minute Food Production Management project from last night till about 5.45am in the morning. Class was supposed to start at 8.30 but.. i slept thru till 11.30..
When i woke up, STRAIGHT AWAY my mind was.. SHIT! My Convention & Exhibition (C&E)Test.. it's supposed to be NOW!!! She already cancelled the test since last friday (because some of us have interviews, which includes ME!!) And i can't rush to school (no $ for cab, haven't shower, haven't done collating my Foods report) My mind was in a whirlwind.. It flew EVERYWHERE.. i can't focus..
Sigh, so i told myself.. Since i'll surely get a Zero already.. might as well stay home and finish up my Foods project.. But after awhile.. 11.45am-supposed to be C&E test time.. my mates text me and said.. Sarah! Teacher cancelled the test, postponed to tomorrow 27 may 2009.. In my heart i was screaming.. AWESOME!! PRAISE JESUS!! WHO ELSE COULD HAVE DONE THAT.. AMEN AMEN!
His SECOND handprints in my Life today..
As mentioned earlier, I woke up late today.. I was doing my project till about 4.30, got to shower then leave to print the report. i was rushing to shower.. change to go out.. then my friends called me to tell me.. the project can be handed in tomorrow first thing in the morning.. AWESOME! AWESOME! I can still touched it up properly..AMEN!
His THIRD handprints in my Life today!
Tomorrow was supposed to be my mock-interview with my trainer.. but there's mid-week service tomorrow.. i'm thinking.. "wah.. must wear formal.. then need to bring extra clothes to change for choir.." Sigh..
BUT..
My mock-interview was postponed to Thurs..
WHEE~~AWESOME! Tell me.. who else can it be?? MID-WEEK.. Here I COME!! with arms high and heart abandoned..
His FOURTH handprints in my Life today
I thought i didn't have enough time to go look for decorations for my event day( this sunday, 31st may 09)..
BUT because.. tomorrow.. since i have no mock-interview..
I have the time FROM 11.30am all the way till 6pm to go look for Decorations..which could have made me leave at about 2-3 plus?
Yeah!!!
AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME lah!!!! Simply toooo good already.. THANK YOU JESUS.. Muacks!!! I love you leh, abba daddy..
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Only He can..
Sigh..Why can't I see that my family does play the most important role in my life (other than Jesus)?
It struck me again.
On the 13th May, Mummy and I quarrelled. It was so bad, her gastric hit her (she told me after that). Normally, we wouldn't be talking for about 2-3 days.. The same day i got a call from Fullerton Hotel for interview.
Then i realised, i have no proper formal shirt, pants, HEELs...
When i came home on 14th May, I spoke to mummy abit (random chat, like where's papa now.. i need him to buy me some cheap black heels for interview).. then it lead to her saying to bring me downstair to get my heels. SHE INITIATED IT.. (wow, it was so amazing.. for her character, she seldom say this to me..ESPECIALLY WORSE when i've just made her angry last night)
Seeing that neighbourhood area don't have the shoes i wanted.. She said go causeway point.. WOW! wearing till so lepak.. but still, we went. Sigh.. Amazing mom.. I thought she didn't bother that i have interview.. but to think, she's more anxious than me.. sigh...
[[.. I'm sorry lah mummy.. ]]
She bought me a very nice blazer like jacket.. sighh... simply awesome... This seriously, only requires His Grace man.. nothing else.. Only He, can mend the broken hearted, broken relationship..
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
WHATS NEW?!?!
WHATS NEW?!?!Yea!!
OR RATHER, NOT NEW..
I'M AN INGRATE! BASTARD! BITCH! IDIOT!
(quoted from a understanding mouth)
now thats what's not new...
So what now? FUCK!
I feel so accused.. I "love" the atmosphere at home man, always against me. C'mon, can't you feel how cool it is?
Yea.. Honestly, you guys can say whatever you like.. I won't Budge..just cause i don't do housework when you ask me to? can't stay home a little more like my bro? Like staying out, hanging with friends.. going out like how normal young adult can..
I'm seriously thinking of moving out man. There's more PRO's than CON's
PRO's:
- I won't Harm you guys health (for e.g. never buy food,then will get gastric)
- Lesser Screaming at home
- More $$ savings for you guys (no more paying for shatec or my phone bills)
- Not much people to choose to delegate jobs to
- Lesser comparison between jobs given
- All household utilities will go down by half (no more com, shower, lights etc...)
- Live Longer cause high blood won't rise
- No need to pack " Ang Bao" leh!!
- Can turn my room into a walk-in wardrobe.. Big enough you know..
- No need to waste extra ingredients
- Need not count how many times i do the housework..
CON's:
- Lesser noise at home
- No one to switch minor verbal quarrels with
- No one to tie your hair..
So..looks like, we have more Pro's than Con's..so.. what should we do with it? Execute it? OH yea man! How cool is that.. tell me ..tell me..
Sigh.... Quoted above "I'M AN INGRATE! BASTARD! BITCH! IDIOT!" <----------I BIND IT His name.. BIND BIND BIND BIND BIND.. Cause i know i'm the beloved and the precious
Labels: Whats new?
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Tiring 2 weeks
Finally. Picked my hands up to type this entry.Phew (perspire). This two weeks of school have been "QUITE" tiring. I don't even have the time to rest, having late nights, planning, being so disorganized. Gosh! Such a huge project for me because it's my first time handling a relatively high status with major responsibilities. I believe strongly that the Lord have something Great coming up installed for me! He's preparing me for something AWESOME!
Have to start on my resume like real soon too. Gotta show my trainer some draft to see if the format and writing are right.. and all lah.. oh well...
Monday, April 06, 2009
Falling in love again.
Church service was amazing today!Served choir for the 1st two services and the annointing was so strong and radical it wiped us off our feets. Can't help but fall in love with Jesus again. It's been so long, that i've sung it to glorify Him. It's always about me having to be there to do my service, but it's not. It's more than that, like how i proclaim to God in my heart (for my C&E project), that i wanted something more than just being a secretary(my role since previous major project). He not only answers my prayer, he over-answers it.
1st service really made me pour my heart out. When i saw how Pastor Lawrence almost cried when he prayed for Pastor Prince, i can't help but to feel so touched of how much radical grace has been preached and opened up by Pastor into my life. Pastor Prince, Daddy God is with you and your family! The enemies will not come near you, instead will flee 7 ways. Amen!
Pastor Prince made us write this down, "Without God, we cannot. Without us, God will not." Can't explain it today, cause i have to sleep already.
note:
I'm beginning to love studying (while enjoying of course). Beginning to love projects, mates. I'm able to do all that, because He first did it for me. He loved me first, and my manifestation of blessings will be rolling down onto me. So blessed, i can't contain it. So much, i've got to Give it away.
The renewal of my mind, metta-noya. (don't know how to spell)
Amen!
Jesus, shall take the highest honour.
Labels: to Love again
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Where's my freedom?
Goodness, i'm 20 already, yet i have no "going out longer" freedom. The story goes...Today, i met up with Ting for breakfast from about 10am-10.45am. (mum's still sleeping)
Went home (mum's STILL sleeping), grab my choir stuff and went out to meet Lynn in city hall at about 12.15pm. Met Li Rong too for lunch, in Suntec. ( so it doesn't really matter what time i go out, cause you're still sleeping what)
All in all, lunch ended at about 2 plus. Since we have no more money left, we decided to go on a "no need money walking". Lynn want to adopt a dog from SPCA, so i suggested we head there. We enjoyed so much man, playing with a particular dog, cocker spaniel. It's very friendly and i love it. How i wish i could adopt one soon.
Headed back to City hall to meet Lirong, so I can go for choir practice with her..
Reach home at about 11.30.
Parents commented that i went out the whole day. Is it really something so big? for them to breathe down me? Saying i'm out for so long..and and and I don't meet them often. Why not?
I don't get it. They said they'll not care about me when i'm 21, but do you guys think so? even at 20, such small thing they cannot even accept, let alone not bothering 1 year later. WHAT is this ?!?!?!
Do you think i can tell you exactly what happen in my day, what i've been doing? when the way you guys ask is as though, "it's my fault" for staying out almost 12 hours.
NO! I cannot open myself to you.
I'm so glad i'm starting attachment real soon. i'll do OT OT OT OT all the time. Deprive me so much from all this staying out a little longer. Sigh.. they know they cannot protect me my whole life. Please let me have my life. My youthful days. I don't want to just stay home! not cause i hate home. But i just want to go out. Why do you think i always try to find lies (have project, have homework) to cover my whereabouts? Cause, i can't be truthful, not to you guys. I want to be able to do my things, enjoy my moments. ** actually, most of the time is true.. but i'll make use of the chance to hang somewhere.
Stop comparing me with my brother, he likes to stay home, let him stay. I want to go out. I'm not the girl you can order "do this, do that" anymore. There's no grace in this relationship with them at all. I can't give in, neither can you.
This is the passing phase you'll face with me becoming a young adult. Move with it. Don't stay in those traditional thinking.
What puzzles me the most is, my friends sees you guys as young parents, but the thinking is so old.
Sometimes you're my friend, sometimes you show your anger.. over little things..What are you guys actually? I can't understand you, neither can you understand me.
Labels: Freedom? coming?
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
What a news?!?!!
I read a news in yahoo and there's an article about New Creation Church leaders being paid 500k salary. I've heard of many people are making absurd comment about this. 
Lets take for an example, in France, there are many crop fields along the highway...
While you're driving along the highway in France, you look out your car window and saw a farmer tending his grown crops. You tell yourself " Wow, this guy is so lucky, he have so much crops to harvest." But what the people don't know is the period where he faithfully sowed the small seeds into the tilled ground to the results that he have now. (something along that line)
So it means, people judge what they can see, and keep aside the thought of how the things actually came about? Puny Humans..(words from The Hulk)
If the people of the world can be rich, why not a church. Just because there's a saying which goes, "as poor as a church mouse" means we must be poor?
Please..Do yourself a favour, instead of criticising the church, come and listen to the preaching of Grace before you start pointing. Then you'll realise, what the real deal is.
On a side note:
My church will still continue to prosper! Abba Father promised us riches and abundance. Would i not claim it? Of course i will! I have a rich church and a rich FATHER! Amen! My Lord will speak for us!
Labels: Jesus is my Speaker