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Saturday, May 03, 2008 ( I cannot help, but to have my way... @ 7:21 pm ) To accept then absorb and think/analyse. I seriously find it hard doing. Apparently this isn't the first time i'm hearing someone saying that to me, but i just find it hard doing it. The family that i came from are of the same culture. We speak the same way, react the same. Reacting very abruptly and speaking very rudely i guess, is just a way i got so used to, that i realised it's not much of an attitude at home. Even if i know it's rude,they're doing it too. Of course it's not how i normally do to others outside. Taking it for granted i should say, knowing that my family will always be there and will never leave when i really need them. But still, i think for this generation of teenage like me, i'd supposed we don't like to be treated the way our family don't like to be treated by us.If it doesn't make sense to you, well at least it does to me. I'm definately more bold than them 20 years ago, especially when the rebellion of kids increase higher and higher each year. So if ever they ask me to leave, i'll gladly take my bag and walk out. (take note: i'm not secretly waiting till they sleep). I know that it'll be difficult without them, and also without education.Well, when i'm stranded into that situation, maybe then i'll know what to do. Such not a wise decision to have, but thats if i really plan to do it. There are a certain thing that i can learn at home, but there're many things which requires me to "bang against the wall first" before really understanding it. Stubborn, i am. i'm so sorry that i'm always making you guys angry, fighting the wrong rights....but i cannot say sorry. ego...... When you guys asked me to prioritize between friends and family.It's a very hard and unfair decision. I wouldn't say my friends are as important as my family, but sometimes, i just want to be with them. Moreover, the reason with having a boyfriend is someone i want to turn to when i need to speak, to be silly, to encourage me, to have fun with me (shopping, strolling around malls). Are you guys able to do that for me? I mean, there are a certain limits to what a family can give, do i expect a hug from you?a kiss?sorry?love you? sorry, i'm just not used to it and i'm not expecting it at all. But i'm seeing myself recieving and giving that when i'm older, when i'm earning my own money. I know i would do that, but not now....i'm sorry... I've asked abba to make a way for all this misunderstanding and to also open up our eyes to a different perspective. Just know that, i'll always love you guys...... Labels: but to have my way..., I cannot help 0 comments |