f0r 0nce..i finally f0und me..

Thanks for picking me up..

2011-04-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

Dear Jesus,

Today was supposed to be a good day, but there was a minor squabble with my boyfriend and a bad discussion session with mum.

Whatever it is, it will not end that way because I'm going to end it with you.

Daddy, like a child I pray that my heart grows deeper for you. As I was listening to the sermon "How believers fall from grace- dated 17 April 2011, New Creation Church" I felt such relief hearing that I fell. At least I knew the cause of why I became a totally different person. My mind repeatedly reminded itself that how can I be a christian when I can't even act right. I'm not righteous enough. I know what is grace and I know that I'm forgiven but I can't feel it within me. It is just a "knowing" and not from within. After listening to the CD, I felt a totally new person. I will start off by the smallest (of which I thought it'll never work) which is to pray for your grace and wisdom for the present day. Though I can't see anything happening yet, I know something else is brewing. Somewhere, somehow it's prepared for me. I trust you totally for that.

If there's something bad that I don't want to do, I'll not say "I will Never do it" <-- There's no power in it as I will end up doing it. Instead, I'll say, In Jesus name.. (now that's the POWER) I'll never do it.

I won't use MY effort to try getting love, especially from my parents and brother. I've been doing that and it's making me very tired. I always try my best to be someone better, but they are like walking time-bomb that will get angry over trivial reason and starts splashing all sorts of remarks without thinking that it hurts alot in me. They didn't realise that the fact that I became so rude to them was because of their words used at me. It is because my heart hurt so much that I want them to feel the same (though it wasn't intentional, but they always assume it is a planned one). Why does she always think she's right? I don't understand the power she is having to let her feel that she's always right. Can't parents be wrong?

Nevertheless, what I want to tell you is that, I want to be filled with sooo much of your love that all the effort that comes out from me will be the effort to love somebody without expecting anything back. The overflowing love that I want to share with everyone in my life. The effort given will be OUT OF LOVE and not FOR LOVE.

Thank you for listening to me. At least I'm jotting it down, because I want to remember what I asked for. I want to give thanks to you even before the results are out. Amen !

What do I really want?

2010-09-16T12:31:00.002+08:00

I am someone who loves to have gathering, party where people will come together to enjoy. Be it for myself or someone else . The pictures I get out of that day is what I will remember and reminise.

I was looking into facebook and I see all the birthday cake for the 21st birthday kiddos. Initially, I wasn't thinking much to celebrate mine, but be because it's MY 21st. It is the year where freedom steps in and the year where the kiddos will feel that we can conquer the world.

But, just one week more and I'm still doing nuts. Well , I guess I won't be doing anything at all! Why? Cause I can't find the right reason to. I can't see much support. I just think it's my wishful thinking to enjoy this year of mine.

I trust that whatever happens in the end, no matter what the final decision is, it will definitely be good as Jesus is with me all this while. He makes one feel better, multiply the intangible lost we feel.

I won't blame anyone of course, i will tell myself " I will not regret not having celebrations for myself " even if u did regret, it's too late already aye!

2010-04-26T03:49:00.002+08:00

It's been almost a year since i've blogged about how my life went by.

I'm glad to say that i'm moving off pretty well.

Worked in various departments from the hotel and picked up awesome skills that could be shared in another. Understood that all that i've been doing wouldn't have went on smoothly without Jesus.

However, I felt rather laid back now. Have not been listening to sermons, songs. It's true that without it, i feel lost. Yet i'm not doing anything to get it back. I guess this is what Pastor always don't want us to see it as, condemning ourselves cause we're not doing anything for the Lord.

I know, that I need not do ANYTHING at all. But my mind always prompt me to "must do something at least".. o Man!

Ok.. While typing all the above, suddenly had the prompting to do this (someone's telling it to me in my mind)...

Declaring..

I am the RIGHTEOUSNESS of Jesus Christ. Your Grace and Favour is for me, the undeserved and unmerited one. All that i felt i don't deserve, ALL for the better because that's where You will manifest the most! Through my weakest, there You are my strongest.

Though I don't speak to You about everything or everyday, You still showered me with SO MUCH favours.

And Jesus, though i've sinned much, i'm FORGIVEN much too. I prayed with my simplest of prayers (thru speaking) that in the powerful name of Jesus, I will be one who will stand up being the strongest as you have promised that I will be the Head and not the Tail, the Top and not beneath. AMEN!!

His 4 handprints in my Life today..

2009-05-26T16:54:00.003+08:00

My Abba father showed His footsteps many times in my life today!!

His FIRST Hand print in my life today

Firstly, I was rushing my last minute Food Production Management project from last night till about 5.45am in the morning. Class was supposed to start at 8.30 but.. i slept thru till 11.30..

When i woke up, STRAIGHT AWAY my mind was.. SHIT! My Convention & Exhibition (C&E)Test.. it's supposed to be NOW!!! She already cancelled the test since last friday (because some of us have interviews, which includes ME!!) And i can't rush to school (no $ for cab, haven't shower, haven't done collating my Foods report) My mind was in a whirlwind.. It flew EVERYWHERE.. i can't focus..

Sigh, so i told myself.. Since i'll surely get a Zero already.. might as well stay home and finish up my Foods project.. But after awhile.. 11.45am-supposed to be C&E test time.. my mates text me and said.. Sarah! Teacher cancelled the test, postponed to tomorrow 27 may 2009.. In my heart i was screaming.. AWESOME!! PRAISE JESUS!! WHO ELSE COULD HAVE DONE THAT.. AMEN AMEN!

His SECOND handprints in my Life today..

As mentioned earlier, I woke up late today.. I was doing my project till about 4.30, got to shower then leave to print the report. i was rushing to shower.. change to go out.. then my friends called me to tell me.. the project can be handed in tomorrow first thing in the morning.. AWESOME! AWESOME! I can still touched it up properly..AMEN!

His THIRD handprints in my Life today!

Tomorrow was supposed to be my mock-interview with my trainer.. but there's mid-week service tomorrow.. i'm thinking.. "wah.. must wear formal.. then need to bring extra clothes to change for choir.." Sigh..

BUT..

My mock-interview was postponed to Thurs..
WHEE~~AWESOME! Tell me.. who else can it be?? MID-WEEK.. Here I COME!! with arms high and heart abandoned..

His FOURTH handprints in my Life today

I thought i didn't have enough time to go look for decorations for my event day( this sunday, 31st may 09)..

BUT because.. tomorrow.. since i have no mock-interview..

I have the time FROM 11.30am all the way till 6pm to go look for Decorations..which could have made me leave at about 2-3 plus?

Yeah!!!

AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME lah!!!! Simply toooo good already.. THANK YOU JESUS.. Muacks!!! I love you leh, abba daddy..

Only He can..

2009-05-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Sigh..

Why can't I see that my family does play the most important role in my life (other than Jesus)?

It struck me again.

On the 13th May, Mummy and I quarrelled. It was so bad, her gastric hit her (she told me after that). Normally, we wouldn't be talking for about 2-3 days.. The same day i got a call from Fullerton Hotel for interview.

Then i realised, i have no proper formal shirt, pants, HEELs...

When i came home on 14th May, I spoke to mummy abit (random chat, like where's papa now.. i need him to buy me some cheap black heels for interview).. then it lead to her saying to bring me downstair to get my heels. SHE INITIATED IT.. (wow, it was so amazing.. for her character, she seldom say this to me..ESPECIALLY WORSE when i've just made her angry last night)

Seeing that neighbourhood area don't have the shoes i wanted.. She said go causeway point.. WOW! wearing till so lepak.. but still, we went. Sigh.. Amazing mom.. I thought she didn't bother that i have interview.. but to think, she's more anxious than me.. sigh...

[[.. I'm sorry lah mummy.. ]]

She bought me a very nice blazer like jacket.. sighh... simply awesome... This seriously, only requires His Grace man.. nothing else.. Only He, can mend the broken hearted, broken relationship..

WHATS NEW?!?!

2009-05-13T01:02:00.011+08:00

WHATS NEW?!?!

Yea!!

OR RATHER, NOT NEW..

I'M AN INGRATE! BASTARD! BITCH! IDIOT!
(quoted from a understanding mouth)

now thats what's not new...

So what now? FUCK!

I feel so accused.. I "love" the atmosphere at home man, always against me. C'mon, can't you feel how cool it is?

Yea.. Honestly, you guys can say whatever you like.. I won't Budge..just cause i don't do housework when you ask me to? can't stay home a little more like my bro? Like staying out, hanging with friends.. going out like how normal young adult can..

I'm seriously thinking of moving out man. There's more PRO's than CON's

PRO's:

I won't Harm you guys health (for e.g. never buy food,then will get gastric)
Lesser Screaming at home
More $$ savings for you guys (no more paying for shatec or my phone bills)
Not much people to choose to delegate jobs to
Lesser comparison between jobs given
All household utilities will go down by half (no more com, shower, lights etc...)
Live Longer cause high blood won't rise
No need to pack " Ang Bao" leh!!
Can turn my room into a walk-in wardrobe.. Big enough you know..
No need to waste extra ingredients
Need not count how many times i do the housework..

CON's:

Lesser noise at home
No one to switch minor verbal quarrels with
No one to tie your hair..

So..looks like, we have more Pro's than Con's..so.. what should we do with it? Execute it? OH yea man! How cool is that.. tell me ..tell me..

Sigh.... Quoted above "I'M AN INGRATE! BASTARD! BITCH! IDIOT!" <----------I BIND IT His name.. BIND BIND BIND BIND BIND.. Cause i know i'm the beloved and the precious

Tiring 2 weeks

2009-04-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

Finally. Picked my hands up to type this entry.

Phew (perspire). This two weeks of school have been "QUITE" tiring. I don't even have the time to rest, having late nights, planning, being so disorganized. Gosh! Such a huge project for me because it's my first time handling a relatively high status with major responsibilities. I believe strongly that the Lord have something Great coming up installed for me! He's preparing me for something AWESOME!

Have to start on my resume like real soon too. Gotta show my trainer some draft to see if the format and writing are right.. and all lah.. oh well...

Falling in love again.

2009-04-06T01:00:00.003+08:00

Church service was amazing today!

Served choir for the 1st two services and the annointing was so strong and radical it wiped us off our feets. Can't help but fall in love with Jesus again. It's been so long, that i've sung it to glorify Him. It's always about me having to be there to do my service, but it's not. It's more than that, like how i proclaim to God in my heart (for my C&E project), that i wanted something more than just being a secretary(my role since previous major project). He not only answers my prayer, he over-answers it.

1st service really made me pour my heart out. When i saw how Pastor Lawrence almost cried when he prayed for Pastor Prince, i can't help but to feel so touched of how much radical grace has been preached and opened up by Pastor into my life. Pastor Prince, Daddy God is with you and your family! The enemies will not come near you, instead will flee 7 ways. Amen!

Pastor Prince made us write this down, "Without God, we cannot. Without us, God will not." Can't explain it today, cause i have to sleep already.

note:

I'm beginning to love studying (while enjoying of course). Beginning to love projects, mates. I'm able to do all that, because He first did it for me. He loved me first, and my manifestation of blessings will be rolling down onto me. So blessed, i can't contain it. So much, i've got to Give it away.

The renewal of my mind, metta-noya. (don't know how to spell)

Amen!

Jesus, shall take the highest honour.

Where's my freedom?

2009-04-02T00:31:00.005+08:00

Goodness, i'm 20 already, yet i have no "going out longer" freedom. The story goes...

Today, i met up with Ting for breakfast from about 10am-10.45am. (mum's still sleeping)

Went home (mum's STILL sleeping), grab my choir stuff and went out to meet Lynn in city hall at about 12.15pm. Met Li Rong too for lunch, in Suntec. ( so it doesn't really matter what time i go out, cause you're still sleeping what)

All in all, lunch ended at about 2 plus. Since we have no more money left, we decided to go on a "no need money walking". Lynn want to adopt a dog from SPCA, so i suggested we head there. We enjoyed so much man, playing with a particular dog, cocker spaniel. It's very friendly and i love it. How i wish i could adopt one soon.

Headed back to City hall to meet Lirong, so I can go for choir practice with her..

Reach home at about 11.30.

Parents commented that i went out the whole day. Is it really something so big? for them to breathe down me? Saying i'm out for so long..and and and I don't meet them often. Why not?

I don't get it. They said they'll not care about me when i'm 21, but do you guys think so? even at 20, such small thing they cannot even accept, let alone not bothering 1 year later. WHAT is this ?!?!?!

Do you think i can tell you exactly what happen in my day, what i've been doing? when the way you guys ask is as though, "it's my fault" for staying out almost 12 hours.

NO! I cannot open myself to you.

I'm so glad i'm starting attachment real soon. i'll do OT OT OT OT all the time. Deprive me so much from all this staying out a little longer. Sigh.. they know they cannot protect me my whole life. Please let me have my life. My youthful days. I don't want to just stay home! not cause i hate home. But i just want to go out. Why do you think i always try to find lies (have project, have homework) to cover my whereabouts? Cause, i can't be truthful, not to you guys. I want to be able to do my things, enjoy my moments. ** actually, most of the time is true.. but i'll make use of the chance to hang somewhere.

Stop comparing me with my brother, he likes to stay home, let him stay. I want to go out. I'm not the girl you can order "do this, do that" anymore. There's no grace in this relationship with them at all. I can't give in, neither can you.

This is the passing phase you'll face with me becoming a young adult. Move with it. Don't stay in those traditional thinking.

What puzzles me the most is, my friends sees you guys as young parents, but the thinking is so old.

Sometimes you're my friend, sometimes you show your anger.. over little things..What are you guys actually? I can't understand you, neither can you understand me.

What a news?!?!!

2009-03-31T22:28:00.004+08:00

I read a news in yahoo and there's an article about New Creation Church leaders being paid 500k salary. I've heard of many people are making absurd comment about this.

Lets take for an example, in France, there are many crop fields along the highway...

While you're driving along the highway in France, you look out your car window and saw a farmer tending his grown crops. You tell yourself " Wow, this guy is so lucky, he have so much crops to harvest." But what the people don't know is the period where he faithfully sowed the small seeds into the tilled ground to the results that he have now. (something along that line)

So it means, people judge what they can see, and keep aside the thought of how the things actually came about? Puny Humans..(words from The Hulk)

If the people of the world can be rich, why not a church. Just because there's a saying which goes, "as poor as a church mouse" means we must be poor?

Please..Do yourself a favour, instead of criticising the church, come and listen to the preaching of Grace before you start pointing. Then you'll realise, what the real deal is.

On a side note:

My church will still continue to prosper! Abba Father promised us riches and abundance. Would i not claim it? Of course i will! I have a rich church and a rich FATHER! Amen! My Lord will speak for us!

A start of something ..boring..

2009-03-30T18:51:00.003+08:00

it's a norm.
After exams, 1 week of break follows after..

Yup, only one boring week.

It's my first day today and i'm already feeling headache. It's so unbearable ,yet i don't want to sleep or take panadol.

I don't want to stay home. I want to go out!!!!

It's simply not me!

Updated:

I met up with Ting just now. went home at about 11.20pm. Had a good talk, good catch up.

It's Friday, Exams done..and it's Music min dinner

2009-03-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

It's FRIDAY!!

and there are two good news about today, 27th March 2009..

Firstly, my 2nd last term exams will be done!!!! PRAISE GOD! It has been a fulfulling journey with Him, that He's with me throughout my exams. Even though i failed on my part that i didn't consistently revise on my last minute work..But He's still here, because he never leaves. Why would my Abba leave me when i need Him the most.

Secondly, Music Ministry Dinner is TODAY! I'm so excited...

..but i don't know what to wear. Cannot wear too over, but yet i don't want to under-dress. Gosh! in such a dilemma. I know it's going to be a fun dinner! especially with ALL music min people coming together again! I just love gatherings!

Not so good news- Of all days, my BIGGEST pimple had to come out this week. But luckily it subsided a little. By 7pm, it'll DROPPED off..in the name of Jesus! *quite scary huh, pimple drop OUT*

I've been doing pretty fine in my exams so far. Well, even if i didn't do well, i know by His grace, the eyes of the examiner will be closed when they see my wrong answer!!
LOL..

How cool is my God? Extremely cool right? Nothing's Impossible man..

2 exams past, 3 more to go !

2009-03-24T20:51:00.005+08:00

~oh u oh u yea eh yea ehh~!

2 papers passed, both micro econs and quantitative methods. Two subjects, that i don't quite fancy (but the teachers are good), are done! And i think i'll do pretty ok. By His grace, what's not possible?? I've got another 3 papers left, but it'll be done by a blink of the eye anyway. ^^

Now, i'm studying for my third paper, Principles of management. sigh, so much Terms and definition to remember. Again, by His grace, i can do it!

I'm so looking forward to Friday's Music Min's dinner( can wear nice nice leh) and Saturday's combine caregroup session(I'm gonna sing it out man! ). Oh yeah!!!

ok.

It's

a

sudden

goodbye =)

Ciao!

Random picture of me lah!

Hello, my darling...

2009-03-21T01:33:00.009+08:00

Yup, my darling blog..

Finally, my 10-weeks long projects are finally done! Praise God. It was good and awesome!

During those moments when i thought i have failed and it wouldn't come out good, He showed me that He is my way. He bore my weakness, pain, stress ,and EVERYTHING else. I had to pour it out to someone, and my bf reminded me of the word, "all you who labour and are heavy laden, come, and I will give you rest" Amen! I know nothing can path my way/results except for Him. Amazing isn't it?

Now, since i'm done with my projects. The next immediate "mountain" are my exams. Last minute work again, have to study the night before. But you know whats the awesome thing about this situation...? My exams is in the afternoon. Usually, it'll be held in the morning 10am-12pm. But now it's 2pm-4pm!! See, it's His hand of work. He knows that this term, I wouldn't have enough time to study because of all the projects thats why, He put it to the afternoon.. Amen again! It's beyond everyone's means to make this happen, only Him.

Let me see, if there's any interesting happening i can put up here... ... ...

Thinking... ... ... ...

A very close friend of mine got married...

Ya, i know i know, i'm short. Doesn't matter anyway, i'm beautiful =) Kim is too!

This is my Team mates for S4 T1...

And yes, we're wearing home clothes now..Gone are the uniforms.. Sigh, i missed uniform in shatec man. Oh well..

Uniform nice what.. Look more standardize, with different colour of cardigens

Or with neckpiece..I miss them!

Ooops! Wrong example of school uniform.

*it's just for fun!

Ahhh, This is the right one.. Nice right??

Ok folks.. I guess, thats all i'm going to say.

Tata! Ciao..

A note for Abba Jesus..

Jesus, Take the wheel of my exams..

You are my super memory, my wisdom, my discipline..

It is Finished~!

Praise God, it's gonna be easy =)

This is my FUCK YOU entry..

2008-12-31T14:50:00.003+08:00

Thanks for always being there for me. You guys are like the best! Yeah!!

But those are just moments of moments. I've kept my mouth shut whenever i can, try to keep my thinking open and not curse you guys so much. I've TRIED my bloody damn best to bring up the whole atmosphere, but ya.. your best traits.. to spoil it by screaming. So you know what.. FUCK you.. (if you can use it so verbally, why can't I? Thanks for setting such good example.) fuck Fuck FUck FUCk FUCK !!!

Yea yea~ you guys rule OUR world. Whatever u say, yup.. we must do. What else? Go clean your room, go buy food, go wash your toilet when dirty, don't always talk on the phone, don't always go out, don't always go online.
It's all good and sounds ok, such a common phrase, but you know what.. Be it I follow or not, it's my choice! Everyone faces this, don't they?

I don't really Fucking Care..Even if the whole world's facing the same thing, i'll still individualise that feeling and treatment from them.

I hate bitching about you guys. I dislike it totally, but i have nowhere else to VENT and RANT about this.

How about this.. Let me share MORE about my life and whats going on. So you can actually USE it and PUT IT AGAINST me when you're angry or mad at me..ANYTIME you know.. Want want?? I honestly think it's a very awesome idea, right?

Oh ya, another thing. How bout' I'll go to church more often and attend CG and youth service, so you can say "What kind of a Christian are you? Want to act as if you're very good but actually you're just a piece of SHIT, Cheap bitch" RIGHT?? Go on condemning..Awww man!! I'm such a freaking FUCKING genius..

I'm using good words right? I mean, you can use it too..why not I?

I've changed and I know I've been made good. But for this 2 weeks incident, i couldn't take it at all. I have put it upon Abba already, but my heart cannot let it go. I kept very quiet, eating my food. Then the sudden sarcasm from you came slowly impact-ing into my mind. I couldn't hold the emotions in my chest, i finished my food in speed seconds and went off, NOT WANTING to hear anything more..FUCKED! Thanks ah.

Lets rock and ROLL man.. I've such an AWESOME CHRISTMAS and NEW YEAR all special thanks to you guys! *round of applause* (Thanks for ruining it)

K.. I'm feeling so WHATEVER now, finally.. I've given out most of what i feel and i'm quite lazy to type somemore. 2008 will pass in another 8 hours. And I know my Lord will restore.

Sigh...The devotional on 30th Dec 08 (it was very timely). It said something on Moses was asked to cast the rod onto the floor and it'll become a snake, then hold it by the tail. Although holding onto the tail is the most dangerous part as the snake can turn and bite him, Lord said he'll TAKE CARE of the HEAD (the part that bites). I'm holding on to that truth and those accusation that bites, those words that hurts will be TAKEN CARE of.

Phew.. My heart's feeling such a relief. Still, Oh lord i'm so sorry..

Ok lah, Lets start on a new year! Yea~

My New Year Resolutions:

To stay out as often as I can. To prevent any abrasion with anyone.
Mind my own business and not be bothered about anything.
Whats this thing about trying to get well with them? It'll all come to naught anyway..So, don't care about them!
Keep VERY quiet when I'm home. (i'm extremely noisy back home one) So, there's not a chance for anyone to talk to me.
Go to CHURCH. It's the only place i want to be at. Can i just stay there and wait for Saturday and Sunday?

P.S I don't feel good saying all this, but pls let this be a place where i can be myself. I'm only human.

My new found kingdom friends

2008-11-22T01:00:00.004+08:00

Awesome! Today was my third time in caregroup and i enjoyed it so much! I've been missing out so much man.. But i know he'll fully restore all that i lost and missed. On top of that, i've made very good friends, Lynn and Jze Ying.

We have so many similar hobbies, characteristic, sense of humour. We're 18,19 (me),20 years old. Our birthDATES are very near also,

(8th Oct (Jze Ying), 30th Sep(me) and 21st Sep(lynn) . So the difference of the dates is.. 21st Sep- 30th Sep (9 days) from 30th Sep to 8th Oct (8 days)

Lynn said that :"the number 8 and 9 have meaning in the bible one. 8 means new beginnings, 9 means the gift of the holy spirit."

Hence we came up with this..

From (lynn to me) is The gift of the holy spirit... From (Me to Jze Ying) we'll have new beginnings. OR

From (Jze ying to me) Our friendship is a new beginning, (Me to Lynn) with the gift of the holy spirit.

How amazing is this??tell me..

We loved dancing and will be doing it together soon! Go Bananas Oh yea oh yea oooohh yeaaahhh.

I Need To Blog About This..

2008-09-29T23:20:00.008+08:00

Nothing BIG about it actually, but it's a WOW !

It's about the Blue Label Event that i was hired to work, for a day. Last week Friday (26th Sep 2008) from 11.15 am to 11 pm held in the British High Commissioner House.

It was an event to commemorate the F1 Night Race in Singapore, and the guest list invited varied from people all over the world (China, Europe, etc..). There were popular Actors/Actresses from Taiwan, Korea, India (Bollywood) and even Racers. Sadly, i only recognise 3 more prominent ones. However MORE are there and i didn't realise, maybe, i just couldn't recognise them. Can't help it. Oh well.. Wanna know who i saw?? 2 of them are sitting at the table i personally HAVE TO SERVE..

Lets start from..

KOREAN STAR

Rain..

Haha.. was supposed to. My "that-day manager" told us that Rain might be coming. I wasn't very WOWed by it though, so i didn't expect much of who else was coming.

The event was starting, and the guests were all coming up the stairs from the cocktail reception. Guess what, (pls act act abit in this scenario) when i was preparing my side station, while waiting and when i turned (messy hair's flying all over) i saw this PARTICULAR guy...

I was completely.. OH MY GOODNESS!!!! He is ONE of the korean actor that i fancied (in acting lah..of course!). My jaws dropped opened invincibily, head's floating. I GOTTA KEEP CALM (i did). He is sooooo CUTE in real life. ok lah, he's just cute =) that cool suave look wooshes you off your feet.

He was Ryu Ji Won.. In the internet, his name is spelt as Ryu Shi Won.

Cute right? Haha, my classmate (Yvonne) keeps coming over from opposite side whispering to me. He's soooo Handsome, he's sooo handsome and i've to keep correcting her, he's not handsome, he's just cute lah. Then she'll show me her DIMPLES. ArgG!

Taiwan Star

The Second one i saw, is a Lady, and she's kinda popular i guess. I think her sister is more popular, but oh well. That doesn't matter at all, what matters is that she's gorgeously sexy that night. Simple nice long black evening gown... I didn't know she's that pretty, i don't even remember how she looks before that day..

Know who is Xiao S?

Yeps! it's her! i saw her husband and her (btw, she's served by Yvonne) and i always whisper to her saying, she's very pretty leh, then Dimple* ArgG!

She is pretty, but in a very young, Sexy way. Whereas her sister Da S, is prettier in a very classy way. And they're BOTH THIN.

RACER

Last but not least, he's a Racer. Former F1 racer, he who set the legacy of F1, being the champion for many years and he retired already. (But he's only 40!! That event itself, was his birthday) He's the Ambassador of Jonnie Walker, promoting the "Don't Drink and Drive"campaign. (not lewis lah, he's racing on tracks, how to attend dinner? )

You're RIGHT!

He's none other than Mika Hakkinen.. He started racing at the age of 5 you know. He have pictures on google when he was at his youngest age till now. Although last time more handsome, now he's still good looking for his age.Haha!

Amazing right, on my table have TWO big shots leh! Such Favour that i get to be up close with them.

It was a very tiring event though, non-stop. But We were dressed nicely for this too. There are more pics, but haven't upload to the com yet. So, will do so tmr!

Happy Birthday To Me! I'm 19 already! YEAH! Praise God for bringing, leading and guiding me so well! There's more blessing to come, more revelation, MORE ABUNDANCE coming my way because i'm Literally name Sarah, God's Princess! WHEE~

Sow Where You Want A Harvest..

2008-09-25T00:43:00.006+08:00

Daily Devotional on 13 September 2008.

I was deleting junks from my inbox when i came across this unread mail Titled "Sow Where You Want A Harvest" (I don't normally follow my devotional because i don't always check my mail.)

Oh well, back here! It caught my eye because it was the topic that my mum and I were "debating" and "quarrelling" about. I was sharing with her about what I felt that was a little lacking in our family, which was sharing about God. (it's gonna be a little awkward too because it was not instilled in us since young, and now that I'm older...yeah, you would know..)

I was also sharing with her about tithing. About, sowing our financial seed into the God's Kingdom so that he'll multiply it abundantly. I mean, the example that Pastor gave which was..

*When a farmer sow his seeds into his field and you, being the curious one, ask him :" Erm, I know why you want to sow your seeds, because you want and expect a harvest right?" The farmer must be scratching his head, thinking.. DUH!? what else do you expect me to sow for?

EXACTLY..thats my point..

But to her, Farmer and Financial not being the same thing (though they have the same initials). So what can i say, my "self-righteous" came into action and took over the situation. I just can't help it. Sigh...i was trying to get my point across, because she keep insisting that we don't have enough, if we do tithe. But on my side, i'm thinking, it's not about :"Wah! i have ALOT then i can give." i'm not saying that it's supposed to be like that. But i just want her to have a good opinion of god that despite being "not-enough" and "lack" we will still give because he'll multiply us. He WILL multiply us a HUNDRED FOLD!

Genesis 26:12
12 Then Isaac sowed in that land, and reaped in the same year a hundredfold; and the Lord blessed him.

When you sow apple seeds, you get apples. When you sow seeds of friendship, you get friends. If in the natural, you receive in the area in which you sow, how much more will you receive in the supernatural when God blesses you!

The Bible tells us that when Isaac sowed in the land, he reaped a hundredfold even though there was a famine in that land. (Genesis 26:1) The reason was that “the Lord blessed him”.

My dad was slowly talking to me about his point, why we feel this way. Somehow i have to agree with him because some things make sense to me.. SOME only..I've said some things which indirectly hurt him. I'm sorry for that, but i just can't help also to feel that way. There were many things we're talking about and then He quoted this one sentence which i disagree :" Not One Formula works for all."

But what i think :" is that, God's Formula works IN ALL" If he says he'll multiply, he will. If he said Finances are mine to inherit, it IS MINE. His words says it all. Just because i can't quote the exact word from the bible, don't mean i'm saying it out of context. I believe Pastor don't preach out of context (because he don't like people who uses context to scare others )hence all that i'm learning are true and are from the bible. I faithfully believe Abba will open the eyes of our family, to see and comprehend greater things.

"So start sowing seeds in the area that you are believing God for, and know that before long, you will be reaping your harvest!" AMEN!

Psst..btw, does this following sentence scares you?

"Why make things difficult when God made it easy for you."

The Love For Drinking..

2008-09-22T01:52:00.005+08:00

When i attended my friend's birthday the day before, i promised that i won't drink. Although deep within me, i know, somehow i will. Simple and selfish reason, i just want to enjoy and i don't often get such chance. I know i shouldn't promised, worst still to something that i know i'll be doing. Whats wrong with me?

I Hate being controlled, told what to and not to do. Honestly, i totally hate it. I dislike it when others "follow" what their other halves ask them to/not to. I know that, definitely there'll be sacrifices. But are these sacrifices what i'm ready to give? I still want to play, enjoy. If no one wants to explore this part of me, i want to be alone (sometimes only). I need to say this out..I cannot keep it inside me..

Sigh, it's so unfair to my other half who willingly gives me things that he enjoys giving me whereas on my side, it's my enjoyment that comes first. I never think of how he'd feel. He said, he's not against drinking, but the love for drinking. I admit, i kinda like drinking, but occassionally. It's not like i'm some dead drunkard who purposely buys liquor or beer to quench my thirst. Oh well, i still understand what he means, but still i won't budge.

There's so much thoughts running through me, but i'll let abba father take care of it. When i have christ.. It does not mean my life will be SMOOTH SAILING for me (devil will always come and attack),because i'll have difficulties but NO BURDEN. It will be HIS problem to handle mine. Amen!

I'm sorry lah... I'm always getting myself into such mess......

Updates:Was reading Beng's Blog, found something that i just wanna try for fun, i DON'T believe in that..cause i know who knows me best.. some describe quite true..

September 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. (So true..To those who love, you are bless because i am. To those who hate me, i don't care!)

You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. ( i'm the extreme KIND! oh YES! praise god for giving me so much emotions)

And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. (erm, what..?)

Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. (yeah, *roll eyes*..i'll try..but, not being is what i like..)

Your strength: Your flair (oOo...like TOTALLY)
Your weakness: If you think it, you say it (Thats what for those who dislike me ..)
Your power color: Scarlet red ( i prefer purple.. Royal Purple..because i'm a princess and an heir to the richest one in the world)
Your power symbol: Inverted triangle ( whats that?! I ADORE CROSS)
Your power month: March ( I want November, my bf's birthday)

Larrisa Lam concert and about me!

2008-09-13T01:41:00.006+08:00

WHY SO SERIOUS? was a concert event i went earlier and the singer that came was Larrisa Lam (more about her later). I haven't heard of her name before (well,maybe i did but i just couldn't recall). The event was held at Fort Canning Park in the Gallery, it was organised by a youth church group, Youthphoria, AMC . I forgot the long name of it.

Anyway, About her

She's a christian singer brought up in California, but she's a chinese. Of course, with her brought up there Accent. The way she sings, is a little too loud for me, but the lyrics she writes speaks alot,(her latest album is Revolutionary) . There are many God's people coming out to bring his message to the nation and Amen because it's happening! How awesome to know there are so many people coming out and rejoicing in his name.

I wanna be like them too, except that i'm from Singapore. Corrine May and "Sarah Jane soon-to-come". Well, though it seems impossible and scary,all the better cause, Pastor Terry Mize shared in his sermon (the last time he came) of how another pastor said to him.." If your Dream don't scare you, then you're NOT dreaming BIG enough." IT GOT ME! Hahaha...i thank god for making someone say that, because he does the impossible. If singing is not for me, i strongly believe he's there doing something BIGGER and Awesom-er for me! Wheeeee oo WEET!

When was it about me? It's all about him and HIM ALONE. I cannot imagine what he have installed for me in my life..I'm so kaypoh, cause i wanna know it now..NOW ..NOWWW! but be patient lah, in the Extravagant Worship book, it wrote, that God is Not a Magician but a Builder. I want god to build it in me...oH YEAH..

I'll continue more tomorrow, daddy's going to come out and scold me for sleeping so late...

Sigh, my exams are next week.. and, am i studying enough?
*updates with pictures*

Sarah & Larrisa Lam
She looks very filipino right?

This is the place and we were on the floor.

(We thought we'll be on a chair watching up a stage, but this set up compliments the Theme of "Why So Serious?")

I went to the concert with this two fella
Beng Seet (Round)and Alex (Rectangular)

Such contrast.. LOL

I got some random stranger from the concert to take picture for us.

She's dancing throughout her songs.

[[Song- R&B

Music- Lil' Techno and R&B

Dance- Disco]]

Beng Seet Say one..

2008-09-07T22:35:00.003+08:00

I was browsing through my "long ago" blog entry and realised "wow? i had such amazing time before" it's not that i'm not happy with my life now, but time really is moving so fast, that i couldn't catch hold a moment what happened yesterday, the day before or even last week.

Honestly, this period of my life, i believe, is going to be the dull-est ( the momentum of the everyday routine) School- Home- School- Home, tell me what could be more interesting?

However, with each day that passes, i know for sure, i want to know the Lord more. He'll RESTORE everything by a hundred and twenty fold. He'll restore TIME. Wendy was sharing about how much we needed time to be restored to us and indeed he'll restore (oh,how her words flows with pastor's one ).

In the natural, my life IS dull, routinal but i KNOW i'll thank him for everyday made for me, because THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE, LET US REJOICE and BE GLAD IN IT! So when it's a blessed day, it'll be interesting. Thats why i'm excited over very MINOR things (till people think i'm mad. Worldly people:"so small/little also so happy..SIAO!")

Yups! Thats what i'm saying..

His goodness IS MINE!

[[ *anyway, while typing this, my brother barged into my room calling out JIE ah..and is farting NON-STOP! with some musical tune to it..*PUI!!* disgusting!!*

After walking out and coming in within 3 mins...

There he goes again!!!!! FARTING!!!!!!!
Chong (bro):"*while looking at me type this out..* hehehehe..hahahaha!"
*out he goes!

He's at it AGAIN!!! someone..pleasssssssse HELP ME!!! i'm drown in his fart....
Now, i'm smarter.. i'm going to LOCK the door..
Can you see the light?? around my head?? WHAHAHAHA =) ]]

Anyway, back to my life..

Thats all folks! stay tuned..for another farting entry... (ya right, i don't wanna hear it again)
* ends of with fading news5 tonight*

What a day..

2008-08-19T23:32:00.003+08:00

Well, it's a day when people confronted me on something they're unhappy about, and yes, i've admitted. My fault. I won't say anything to "clear" my name nor will i do anything that appleases anyone. It shall be a lesson learnt.

Apprently, now i'm feeling quite bad for being so selfish, but i shall not be condemnned. No matter what, i'm still in the righteousness of god. His words speaks life into me, speaks for how my life should be, speaks of what should be of me. No one will have a say. It's been "SELF", i'm trying and trying to have favour, to get it right, to solve a thing. But it's all the rest that he said that matters. He'll take care of it.. Why couldn't that get into my mind.. i cannot see how is that to be done... but it's simply..rest..

My demerit points are getting higher, and i'm not the verge of expulsion.BUT, i know, god will deliver me out of it, and miraculously reduce that dp by a hundred fold. i'm worried and thinking how should i lower it, what can i do, what can i lie about.. but now, its nothing. It'll be of NO use at all if i were to try doing it..so..i'll just rest.

I'm not going to hold on to my pipes now..i'm letting it go.i'll do it OUT OF REST. My mind, mouth he'll control. That i'll speak words of wisdom, and i'll think as sharp as an eagle's eye..He'll SURELY (my best friend) deliver me out of this..

Bill Wiese: 23 Minutes in Hell - CBN.com

2008-06-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=c4bd2814a088d4f06b43 --> Watch this!

Bill Wiese: 23 Minutes in Hell - CBN.com

Pat Robertson talks with Bill Wiese, an ordinary man who experienced an extraordinary vision of hell.

I cannot help, but to have my way...

2008-05-03T19:21:00.004+08:00

To accept then absorb and think/analyse.

I seriously find it hard doing.

Apparently this isn't the first time i'm hearing someone saying that to me, but i just find it hard doing it. The family that i came from are of the same culture. We speak the same way, react the same. Reacting very abruptly and speaking very rudely i guess, is just a way i got so used to, that i realised it's not much of an attitude at home. Even if i know it's rude,they're doing it too. Of course it's not how i normally do to others outside. Taking it for granted i should say, knowing that my family will always be there and will never leave when i really need them.

But still, i think for this generation of teenage like me, i'd supposed we don't like to be treated the way our family don't like to be treated by us.If it doesn't make sense to you, well at least it does to me. I'm definately more bold than them 20 years ago, especially when the rebellion of kids increase higher and higher each year. So if ever they ask me to leave, i'll gladly take my bag and walk out. (take note: i'm not secretly waiting till they sleep).

I know that it'll be difficult without them, and also without education.Well, when i'm stranded into that situation, maybe then i'll know what to do.

Such not a wise decision to have, but thats if i really plan to do it.

There are a certain thing that i can learn at home, but there're many things which requires me to "bang against the wall first" before really understanding it. Stubborn, i am.

i'm so sorry that i'm always making you guys angry, fighting the wrong rights....but i cannot say sorry. ego......

When you guys asked me to prioritize between friends and family.It's a very hard and unfair decision. I wouldn't say my friends are as important as my family, but sometimes, i just want to be with them.

Moreover, the reason with having a boyfriend is someone i want to turn to when i need to speak, to be silly, to encourage me, to have fun with me (shopping, strolling around malls). Are you guys able to do that for me? I mean, there are a certain limits to what a family can give, do i expect a hug from you?a kiss?sorry?love you? sorry, i'm just not used to it and i'm not expecting it at all.

But i'm seeing myself recieving and giving that when i'm older, when i'm earning my own money. I know i would do that, but not now....i'm sorry...

I've asked abba to make a way for all this misunderstanding and to also open up our eyes to a different perspective.

Just know that, i'll always love you guys......

My boyfriend is a good guy

2008-02-18T02:23:00.007+08:00

Finally.

it's been awhile since i've blogged. My seventh month with him and it's supposed to be a month of perfection, but it turned out otherwise. My relationship with my parent soured again, main reason is my about my bf. They're unhappy and said that i'm supposed to prioritised my studies and also empasized on the "promised" i gave them before the starting of my course. To assure them that nothing will interrupt my studies, i did gave that "promised", but before the course started, i got together with him alrdy. Sigh, what am i to do?

And i am always telling them that, he is not obstructing me in my studies. He is in fact always supporting me, encouraging me from behind, telling me that everything's gonna be alright. When my exams are coming, he is there accompanying me and reminding me to study. I mean, seriously, where else will you find guys who has already completed his studies still encouraging you, that it's possible if you study way before the exams.He is.

It's not about boasting how good he is, but to such extent of a guy being so concerned at every little thing thats happening to a girl. (as long as it's not overly ridiculous)

JY: baby, it's late alrdy, are you on your way home?If not, please go home soon ok, be good and listen.
JY:Alright then, go home straight after dinner ok, text your parents that you're going home soon

JY:Wow, thank god someone is driving u,do you still gave money?take a cab home ok?text your parents,tell them you're on your way home.

JY: Baby, can you please listen, just take a cab home,alright? Don't argue anymore, its really late now, your parents are worried.Take a cab home ok?

JY:High..I'll pray to the lord that your parents won't wack you,tell hem the event finished late, your friend drove you, and you took cab alrdy.

JY: Baby, don't be stubborn can! text me when you're home.
JY:Baby, are u home? pls tell me you're ok, what did your parents say?

JY: Baby, did your mom hit you?

JY:So did your father hit you? did anyone hit you? baby, tell me the truth.

JY: Alright baby, lets not talk about this, go to bed ok? you still have work tmr,and i know yu're tired.Sweet dreams baby, i'll always be here for you..

THE ONE THAT HIT ME WAS...when i said i wanted to work,and he disapproved

JY: I think i've alrdy given you the answer, working doesn't means they'll allow you to go out normally. I'm a guy,and my father used to control me as well! If i can go through it, why not you? Your friends may be able to home late,but why envious of them? Do they have a loving and caring family like yours?Do they have god in their life? Do they have ME? baby,don't compare with others, you're already blessed! Don't you see that? This is just a passing phase,you'll have your freedom, it's just a matter of time..

All this above are true.not even one which i made up.Proof is in my phone...sigh...

Sigh.... thanks baby! I know one day they'll have a totally different view of you..I'm believing daddy god for more..Lets agree with this ....As long as you're accepted by daddy god, he will make you be accepted by my family!

Taken during Valentine's Day.

The best Valentine's Day ever!!Simple but fulfilling =)

After much pursuasion, finally take picture with me
Stupid faccccccce...haha...I love it!!

Thanks Baby!!

Sorry man..

2007-11-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry! sounds kinda cliche i know, but i don't know what else to say. Lets just put this problem into daddy's hand. Let him handle this,only he have the solution to a million problems that lies ahead of us.

Today, during choir serving time, a few of them spoke to me regarding guys/boyfriend... It's not about two halves coming together to become one, instead it's two Whole coming together to become a more complete whole.And it also only work when we see ourselves as a whole because he (daddy) is in our life. I have to agree to one thing they said about:"do everything you want to do when you're single, if not when you get attached,you'll have to think of the other party." Now since i'm attached, i'll just make good use of it. But it's still quite difficult though, to have to think of another party especially when there's so many more things, you've yet to discover.

Overall, i'm still sorry for disappointing you again and again. I've handled all this attitudes and problems to daddy god already, i'm believing him for a better person that i can be.

feel bad again..sigh

2007-10-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

" Toilet Picture" of the day..

Did i do something wrong again? i didn't LITERALLY do something thats wrong but i felt that the words i used are harshed .Argh! why am i like that? Now it's making me feel bad, but yet i think...

Although a certain things it's weird, i know, even i feel it too. Just cause no one actually are LIKE THAT. But it's something i don't mind others doing to me. Moreover, since i'm there already, why not just make the best out of it.

They're there to help me and not purposely pulling me down or letting me get into trouble. I honestly believe there are reasons behind it, and it's for my own good. Just trust that our daddy has put me in good hands.

Like he put me in good hands of yours, how much more should you trust in him that i'm in the good hands of my leaders right?Anyway, I want to show the whole world that you're a very good man, thats why i'm so proud to tell people of you, my boyfriend, RIGHT?? who would be so eager to tell others about their boyfriend if they're not someone they really like..RIGHT??!?!

The person should know what i mean on this post.Lets trust that, he will make a way for me.

Good boyfriend..

2007-10-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since i've blog. Everyday's routine had been pretty the same, except for the fact that daddy have been blessing me with more favour from everybody. =)

Anyway, can i share with you guys what my boyfriend gave me on my birthday and also, on random days? Even if you don't want to know, i still share! -_-'' "oh ya man, why did i even ask? so kuku!!"

He's a man full of surprises and also, a guy who already think for me earlier then i expected..well, what i know best is that, he have recieved christ already, soooo..........he is Greatly Bless, Highly Favoured and Deeply Loved. He's been sharing with me all the incidents that he's been facing THAT clearly meant, without christ , our mere works would not have made it. *Surely goodness and grace shall follow him all the rest of his life. It's amazing to know the tremendous changes Abba did to his beloved. SO happy!!

And by the way, it's not the things my boyfriend give me that i'm very happy about. I realised something about me too, the actual thing thats making me very happy, glad and liking/loving him more is that he's loving daddy god more and more.The more he know about daddy and the more he praises, gives glory to daddy. The happier i become. I don't know why man?!?! but i do know it's a very WONDERFUL feeling.

an incident...

2007-10-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

The day before my birthday..

Met Kim in the morning as she wants to treat me to an advance lunch .Went to Fish n Co and had “philladera” Fish and chips. After that, reached home at bout 3:45 pm. We were getting ready to go to grandma place when I realized that they’re staying over. I over-reacted a little by saying: “HUH! I thought we’re coming back, sigh I’ve to carry so many things. My clothes, make-up, facial stuff, accessories for choir .Well, I brought so many things because I want to look good as my birthday is tomorrow also. BUT one thing that’s stopping me from staying over granny’s place is that, they don’t have big mirror or small reachable MIRROR. I want to make sure I look good before I go out. I want to get ready all at home so I don’t need to carry so many stuff to granny place and church, then back home with the bulky bag. I didn’t say I’m being ungrateful or what, I just want to go home for the next day to dress properly instead of needing to rush or might have left something I need at home. They just don’t get what I mean. What’s wrong with coming back? I have no ulterior motive or any hidden agenda. And there they are, insisting that I’m an ingrate and a trouble maker.

Am I always creating trouble before going out? I enjoy being out with them, especially when I have chance to. They only see what’s going on for that moment and remember all the BAD I’ve done instead of seeing the time I’ve tried having with them. I’m 18!! What’s wrong with friends? They’re there to be enjoyed with, have a nuisance with. Can my parent’s do that with me ALL the TIME? Huh? Huh? Huh? Sometimes when I’m enjoying with them, and if their mood is not there, they’ll start saying things again. Sometimes when we’re happy, I’ll tell them stuff, chat and talk about what’s going on, but do you know what those words ended up as? They’re words to be used against you when they’re not happy.

Another thing that my mum mention was: “I thought registering you into choir will change you!” But it seems as though she meant that I became worst. Now that’s so NOT TRUE! She told me verbally before that, I’ve changed and became better after joining choir. Now see, using it against me already. I merely want to just come back to sleep, change here and off to church to serve choir. I know, I made it sound as though I’ve to bring a lot of stuff hence not wanting to stay over. But that’s just the, part of the reason only. Main is to just have everything there for me to get myself ready. SIMPLE! That’s all, but still they made it soooooo big as though, YAH, she’s the devil, always causing trouble for us. Only take money and bursting her cell phone bill, priority are her friends and us LAST. Always assuming this, but I’m just going out with them cause it’s the fun I want to have as a teenager..................

still have more,but i'm lazy...

Jamming and chilling out with Lynn

2007-09-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

Liked this photo..I edited with PS..first successful one..=)

Thursday,27 september..

Finally i'm out with Lynn.Well with the pathetic amount of money i have.At least the day still went through smoothly by taking pictures..Met her in the afternoon,had lunch in subway and then to Esplanade river side and chatted for awhile.Headed to Suntec Convention Centre, Gloria Jeans.Lepak,Chilled there till almost the end.Had lots of catching up to do man,she updated me on hers whereas i shared with her mine, a little.There's nothing much happening in my life now what!! only school and JY and family mah...Terrible..=)

Cam Whoring the whole time we're together.She's still the same ,kuku and crazy...And also,pronouncing all the words wrongly (due to the long holiday and not being in school).Very funny."ang mo long" especially.so many more words,but i forgot already..Sigh!

Look at the face differences..We've tried doing lots of faces..

"Chicken Modelling"

"huhhh"
"Act Innocent'
"Widest Smile"
"Forced Smile"

"Grrr.."

Now proper and pretty..
"Father's Princess"

hmm..
pout lips and huh?
After meeting her,i went to meet my other group of friends (my current classmates). For Jamming session! Though it sound so "wah!! Cool!!" but i'm only singing.None of the instruments i tried Jamming.. keke.. We played "Zombie-cranberries" and "through the eyes" Or "through the window" well i think so?? i'm not sure about the second one..Had fun though.So goons,i couldn't reach the super Low note whereas leonard cannot reach the super HIGH notes..HAHAHa..

Melvin beating..

The room
Leonard tuning..
Din tuning..
Izzat tuning..

Lets start..
Hit the drum ,Mel

Group photo proper
Group photo sudden
Then i met my boyfriend for dinner.It was on the way as well,so why not? Met his manager and collegue also.All the tall men really make me feel sooooo short.. *oh lord,i asked, to let me grow another 5 cm more.* I'm well-taken care of..whee! By my family and boyfriend..

Funny picture..and tried editing with PS.. =)

Thats all folks about the day...Take care and God bless you guys fruitfully..

Steven Lim's blog

2007-09-26T02:06:00.000+08:00

I was just browsing through the web pages when i finally went to xiaxue's blog to see if there's any updates.Apparently,she reminded me of the man Steven Lim whom she had a little "commotion" with.A very funny one as well.

Out of curiousity,i went to search for his blog.Surprisingly, alot of broken english and also,weird video's of himself.Hey now, I'm not kidding,it was weird but interestingly funny to watch.I have to admit that this world's going a little out of the traditional way but not to the extend of how he's doing it (well at least,he's the first that i've seen So far..). Super HILLARIOUS...hahaha..

This old man really do make a fool out of himself,but somehow, i feel some are out of goodwill. eg:video for broken hearted,for those who lost hope.......

Well well,what to do..Some just potray themselves to the world in a TOTALLy different way... www.stevenlim.net

Watch the one especially about him calling xiaxue a chicken pie.No offence though,but this fella really are daring and bold.It was one hell good of a laugh overall..

Sue xiaxue-HAHAHA

My life updated..

2007-09-14T10:13:00.000+08:00

Good Morning people! It's been awhile again,since i've updated this blog.Been rather busy though with my school work,and my own stuff.

Well,now to summarise the whole of my months.

Before i started school,i ask daddy god to put me into a good class with good friends.I was hoping that this class would make me want to study instead of just playing around.(I mean,it's time to get serious already right?) They were although not the kind that i hope they were,but they're good! It's hard to explain such people. I'll have to admit there's one or two who are really very intolerable,but the majority of fun and interesting people overwhelmed those few sheeps. *thank god for them*

I've been doing well in my studies, god's grace as well, because i've never felt so successful in my whole studying life.Those who know me personally would understand it.I did not put it so much worry into my studies now because i know i've conquered the study battle.And that all things are possible.Classes are interesting( some teachers are not) .But who cares right? it's not the teacher,but me myself.

Wine tasting class..The most united !

Jane and puva

Molly and Jane

My personal life:

Though my parents are quite hoping that i'll not get into one relationship now because i'm studying and that the school fee are expensive (i'll have to put in my best) ,i still got into it even before they told me.The special relationship that i have right now,is not pulling me away from studies,in fact,he's asking me to focus on my studies more. Not only does he tell me to prioritise my studies,he also encourage me to go further then where i ought to go.Amazing man of mine! He's not selfish and not self centered !! He's always there when i needed him..Whee!! "the man i always wanted?, well maybe .." HE IS!! =)

Take care people..and god bless..have a enjoyable weekend! =) shalom raphah,rest!

Summary of my philippine's vacation

2007-07-05T04:28:00.000+08:00

Greetings to all the human being's who have thought i've been missing for the past one month.Apparently,i merely just set off in a plane to the country called Philippines to a province named Leyte!

I've had many wonderful time there.I don't even feel like coming back,though i know i have to.It's neither high buildings nor sports car,neither posh restaurant nor cleaniness that attracts me.(cause they have none.) It's the natural work and strong people which...ahhhhh...........can't help it. I did alot of crazy stuff and stuffs i've not done before in singapore,eg. Open-air Disco ,Drink till i'm totally drunk. Exotic stuff i've eaten like Sea Urchin (we ate it on the spot we caught it),what an experience!Though i can't swim i still went to the furthest i could to help bring sea urchin up into the bucket.Half-grown chick(in the egg still) Urgh! that was eaten when i was totally drunk.

I became Tanned. I have lots of pictures and video's in this web site. Go check it out. http://www.rememberonce.multiply.com/ Well,i couldn't take more pictures with my Digital Camera cause it fell into the Dagat (Sea). I spoke english+Tagalog+visaya=Half bucket water. Even English which happen to be the better of the Three,i spoke it like i've just learnt english.Grrreat! Cause they still don't get me.Well,i got it through by using hand-sign. Phew! That helps!

Though i didn't spend like a queen,as what i thought i'd be doing.I ate like a queen (ahem.. Princess would sound nicer),all three meals will be prepared according to our liking.All the experience i have there,really couldn't be explain in words.

Somehow,i've accomplished what i want to do. When i saw Baby Brandon,i told myself i want to shower for him,put pampers,make milk,make him sleep on my arms.I did it all.......i was soooo happy.I think overall,the main happiness came from Samantha,Lorenel and Baby Brandon.They're all Tita dorie's children.Potential Beauty and Knight.

Once again the web site to the Pictures

4 beloveds again!

2007-05-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

My first day..Thats han yuen's table.Supposed to be messy one,but AHEM ..too messy.cannot take it.so must clear a lil..

My Jacket, MKS

Office job!! anyone want?? haha! A job that i NEVER thought i'll take, ended up something that i'm doing now. But hey,it's a cool job.It's the most relaxed job,(means, as compared to my collegues.)

Met up for dinner yesterday with the 4 beloveds (including me). We ate in a restaurant called,"something" diner USA.We sang songs again! and take photos (as usual)It's fun fun being with them!

( ? )Diner USA

kuku-ness

Lonely girl....
Candid shot by Professional
Out to make me jealous,cause i have Cone Ice-cream
Queen Mel! and btw, i'm 4 months pregnant already..

Funny right? Thats han yuen..My choir tenor guy.Lunch break in harbour front.And also, he's cool! haha ,but he's more crappy.Alot of "logic" kind of guy..It was him who got me this job.Daddy is amazing isn't he? He's someone i'm not very familiar with! But he answered my prayer,giving me a one week kind of job before going philippines...! Wheeee~!

Toilet 's like my best friend.I always say HI to them.This photo was not edited at all.it's my phone light..LOL......Cool right?

She's my *Model sister.She's so tall!Familiar right? haha..she's got a poster face.

My mum's kit special's

2007-05-18T02:09:00.000+08:00

WOMEN!!!!!! Tell me which lady won't indulge themselves in supposed-to-be women's fav. stuff? Well,shout to me to whom don't dresses nicely(or at least not with torn thattered clothes),puts make up on special occasion?,or even comb their hair? Well my mum's the extreamE! Not only does she,buy suitable clothes or buy big rings,accessories.She fills her Wardrobe with BOXES of MAKE UP!! I mean,no matter how much make up you use on your face or how many compact powder,blusher,eye shadow you'll be getting,trust me my mum's the coolest!! I've actually taken pictures of her kit(S) and compile them together so that you know,you won't be so "WAH LAO EH"..SO many to see!! But seriously ,the stuffs inside are usually ALMOST the same,just that..She like the way the kit is.The different styles of box which look very "class*"..

* Slang while saying it.

Anyway,I'm so looking forward to going philippines end of the month..! Damn.too blessed,i can't contain it..Too much i've gotta give it away.

I met up with Lynn for awhile for di-nch (dinner+Lunch) just now.Went to Fish n Co,her *argh! work place whereby we can get a 10% staff discount.Well,not that bad already.We had our FILL (roll eyes..) it's really FILLed.to the brim ok!Wa had Seafood platter,New york fish and chip's set meal B (ocean fish nuggets,cola tonic),mushroom soup.It's NOT funny again k,so big portion! We were trying to push the food down our throats (by sacrificing our 2 hour sitting and digesting and eating again).Actually this is the first time whereby it's 2 hour with ME and LYNN still eating.Normally it's me who finished eating and have to WAIT for lynn to gobble the last bite down.IMAGINE her ALONE 2 hour K..This time ,she's forgiven.Cause i'm in the 2 hour too! hee~! Well it makes a difference ok..

Of course,we did cam whore while digesting.

Seafood platter

Lynn's friend moses took for us the picture.

Watch out LYNN,it's coming to you!!
Can you see her cross-eyed? cannot make it right....
She likes stupid picture.well,must understand lah.She's by default right? =)
On the way to church! Cause i'm serving choir..
Tried different lightings with my camera.

Today's sermon was another amazing one. Gosh! i didn't quite get it at first,but it made sense to me after a while! wheee! Jesus is whom we must follow.Seek him first and cultivate a relationship with him.Asked him for advise,he will surely answer you! Be it the simplest thing of, Is this hairstyle nice? Or .

Daddy God grace

2007-05-17T02:19:00.000+08:00

Had choir today.It was another fruitful practice given by daddy god through wendy and mervyn!Mummy wendy read out letters written by our choir peeps regarding the issue of BGR.The mails that were written really show that lives from different people are always different.People go through different chapter of lives which we ourselves can never comprehend.

Girls do take note.Never go to dark dark places ALONE with a guy.Things may happen and you'll never know it.Never say,you can take care of yourself.Cause sometimes in SITUATIONS you might even forget your morales and might end up giving in to temptations. Seriously,you will NEVER know.If you're going out with a guy,try going out in groups.If really die die must go out with only one guy,then don't go to seclude areas whereby both can hanky panky.(remember you'll NEVER know..When both hormones increase at the same time,with super empty places.....ahem ahem....you know)

But girls,if you have done it before..Remember ,DO NOT FEEL or BE CONDEMNED! Seek daddy god and pray that you'll have the urge lifted.If you've realised the importance of purity then STOP doing it from the moment you know it.It would be more advisable to save the best for last.Imagine the excitement when your future hubby "opens" you up on the special wedding night,revealing the sensitive moment,parts to each other rather than.. :"it's just another day for me to make love,or better still,the right time to cum in her" to have the so call"permission" to make baby at the expense of her 9 months for your enjoyment.

Girls!! Get what i mean!?! If you ever understand this..and your boyfriend is still insisting on having sex,leave him.he's not worth.Maybe it's you having the urge more,who knows? thats why,if you try VERY hard with your strength,you will not succeed.Ask god to help you,he will be faithful to you though you've done it before.He will show his power and lift your urge up.Haha! Go ahead.Test him...........

My kingdom Pals! Thank you daddy for giving me such wonderful peeps! Though we're of different Personality,daddy god brings us through!

Jane n' Lirong

Lynn,Mel,Jane,Eunice
The face that always appear! Lynn n' Jane

Articure-Artpro machines..

2007-05-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

I did finished a 3 days job.It's nail art stuff,and it's Totally cool! If elizabeth sees this,she'll be like...WAH!! Tell you man.It's damn nice..LOL..time past very swiftly and it was good communication with the customers as well.Though it's free,it's FUN fun FUN!

This shop is located in Square2,Novena station.A very small shop though and actually gives really cheap lasting prints. Ten fingers only 20 bucks.No proper manicure BUT..basic shaping and trimming are provided.Over 100 designs to choose from and the base colour are awesome.So go on.Girls..Go try it. The shop is beside 18 karrats,pinkish stall and the name is Articure. COOL..try it!!

Good points:

-Over 100 designs too select from.

-Cheap! 20 bucks only..For similar picture.Different designs for all are 30 bucks!

-You can also put your OWN FACE on your NAILS!!

-Nails too small? well It's OK..the machine can adjust your nails to fit RIGHT to your small nails.

-Printed designs can last longer than normal Manual arts.

-2 weeks lasting for people who does housework whereas 1 week or less for household maker.

-It's faster to do than manual arts. Each finger will take about 15-20 secs to be done with?

-Whole process will take about 30 mins to 45 mins.

Some examples.Though not very clear but try it yourself.20 bucks ONLY..

All the staffs whom were recruited.Fun working people to be with.and yes,as usual.I'm the youngest and i'm PROUD to be.Wheee!!

And also.HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! Especially to my mummy of course!

Artistic

2007-05-08T02:27:00.000+08:00

Artistic Pictures by Sarah Jane!

Libra for 8th may

2007-05-08T02:22:00.000+08:00

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)
The Bottom Line
Your attitude about life is about to get rosier, thanks to a big dose of romance.

In Detail
Your 'ho-hum' attitude is about to turn into a 'hooray!' attitude, thanks to a big dose of romance that's coming your way. The likeliest suspect is a certain overly friendly person who has been flattering you nonstop, but there are many potential new romantic partners in your world right now (be aware, however, that not all of them are as available as they appear to be). Unexpected invitations and mysterious acts of generosity add intrigue to your life -- do you have a secret admirer?

The Special thing and MRT Incident...scary..

2007-05-03T11:59:00.000+08:00

Had choir practice yesterday and it ended quite late cause "Mommy wendy" was sharing some,facts about Pator Prince loving his server that he wants no danger to lurke around them hence teaching us on how to take pre-cautionary measures towards a certain stuff.Especially to save that "special thing " for after marriage.In fact, i didn't think that,the special thing was something till I understand the true beautiful meaning of doing it after marriage. (which i totally agree with.) Where it actually becomes one true covenant .A valuable "box" that both open together new and fresh with the one you really love.Beautiful isn't it..I believe it is.. The "special thing" must never be the something which keeps my relationship going,whereas having a mutual relation is so much better. But of course,to those whom have actually done it. Do not be condemnned,for we do not need to bear any condemnation because he died to redeem us all.Just repent on it,and not do it anymore.If you're the horny kind and know that you cannot live without it,pray that you have the strength to overcome it. And yes! because he is faithful,he will control it for you.You'll automatically not feel the urge of having it..Seriously! thats how marvellous daddy god is.

Shucks! this is just toooooo beautiful,i cannot help but to keep reading and reading and reading about it.

While waiting for choir to commence,Lirong,Lynn and Jane took some photos.With the Mosiac effect in samsung's phone.

Anyway,when mummy and me are reaching home.. Something happened in admiraltly station,a guy who is seen sleeping (by me ) suddenly fell aside (right side)on the seat to a lady,She was so shocked that she jumped out of the seat,allowing him to have the empty seats to lie onto.He opened his eyes (in a very weak motion),tried to elbow himself up from the seat.and no body bother helping him to.

(neither did i,cause i was too far and i'm scared of his chest tattoo..who knows he keeps a barang in his bag?and out of his drunkard mind he'll slashed me to death causing it to HIT headline in newspaper about "Drunkard man kissing MRT ground and Slashing Cute girl,18 to death" ...Newspaper reported that... .. :"she just wanted to help him up,but got slashed! How could he do that? What a Fr**king Asshole he is..WHY????How could such a wonderful girl go like that?.. ) Something like that lah,but OF COURSE i'm just kidding (*Jok,Jok only nia...)

I told my mum he must be SUPER tired but she assume not.She said he's drunk! but i still insist he's just SUPER tired,cause his face is not red..(never mind that!) when he manage to get himself back to sitting position,a moment later,he seem to be trying to control his movement but still slide a lil' to the man beside him (left side).The guy gave that "OMG" look but phew away when the mum-assume-drunk-man got back to his place again.The third time was WORST,almost reaching marsiling station (my station) the left side guy stood up and then the "drunkard" fella fell straight down onto the empty seats!( as if the man know that it's left empty specially for him) everyone (not much also lah) on the train stared at him. The NEXT MOMENT, *BONG* he fell to the ground..He "kissed" the ground and then adjusted himself to it.My goodness! very scary you know..He just fell like no body's business lah.It was funny to me though,so of course i "silent mode-ly" took some pictures of him. (i act as though i'm fondling around with my precious phone) BUT i'm not.My mum suspected me doing something but she just don't know what!

Well,overall.Another lady beside him (right beside the left side guy who left) went down the station with us.and on the way out,reported to the train officer about a drunkard man.And i overheard her saying to ask them to handle him in the following station (Kranji). Haa..Still very funny lah.LOL. =)

The lady beside him..

Close up

getting ready... 1..2...3

*Bong!Loud thud!! He kissed the ground first k,then adjusted..

Told you he adjusted AGAIN..

Haha.Well,thats all..Went to 7-11 and bought Chicken pao! *hungry* Saw wen sheng and another primary school friend of mine there.they just finished school.(very late alrdy you know,about 11 plus going 12 i think..) Ok..Turning in now..Nights!!

Kampong days officially CLOSED

2007-05-01T11:59:00.000+08:00

Kampong days Gone for sure.Sigh! It's sad you know..to actually be the one clearing and packing.I'll miss my friends there and the design of the place,some food especially.

Kampong settings

Kitchen

Ladies

Sarah & Wong pa

Boon peng,Queenie and xiao hui jie
Jeff and Jane
Boon and Jane
Sarah & Ling Jie

Cleared!
Kitchen stuff cleared!
Overall view
Coconut tree
Henry and Bar

Mixed feeling i have today.Suddenly the thought of being a lesbian struck to me,and i DON'T KNOW why.Feels weird though but yet,seems Fun. There's some verbal-facts about lesbian (girls) being more understanding and caring.Which i think ,DUH..cause they're girls themselves in the first place.Yet,it turned me off,having to kiss the lips which feels the same like mine ( in general) and also the tongue that wriggles around mine will feel the same,soft and small.What am i thinking.?? And also,if we're gonna have sex..How are we gonna enjoy it? toys? Oh please..i want something real.LOL.. WEIRD WEIRD,it just feels weird.But wouldn't it be cool to just give it a shot..*faints* bah..i'm straight i'm straight..But i'm curious! superly curious about all that i've said.

it's nice playing with words,and i want to grasp it all.Time will bring me to.

Many incident in a day man..

2007-04-30T11:39:00.000+08:00

Seriously,i type a whole long essay before writing this entry and i accidentaly close the whole window.Fed Up!! So though i'm gonna write another one something like the previous but I'm not going to elaborate it.Cause it's too long.Let me summarised..

Morning i had breakfast and a meeting with Ain and Ze ming and Shimah.And oh saw an old friend there..Kahfa..Singapore is really small.And oh by the way,i'm in Eunos you know..In the afternoon I had to leave earlier to collect my pay in Ritz.So when i reached CityHall,i took the free shuttle bus to marina square.*lazy to walk lah,imagine on super thin heels which are shakable.* The account lady don't want to give me the money,cause deadline is 3 working days.But i overdued it by 2 weeks..! Got into a lil' commotion.Then i had to leave for Kampong work at 6.But i was late by half an hour,cause of the commotion from the account lady.

Seriously..She's very rude you know,i spoke to her nicely she put the money on my hand already then she checked the date,15th April.Straight away asked me to give her back the money.I wanted to RUN with the money but aiya,consequences will be very big~! and just for that pathetic 36 bucks? that i m1ight even be BANNED from banquet.Who knows?they might spread my name to other hotels!who knows if they know my record,Hotels wouldn't even have second thought of hiring "a girl who ran with 36 bucks!". WHO KNOWS MAN!!!!! Wah super scary..how could I,Sarah Jane leave such legacy behind when i want something better.Woohoo!!

Anyway..Back to the shuttle bus incident.Shortly after i sat quietly on the bus,a china looking girl sat beside me and ask me, showing me her handphone which type :Marina Square #03-243.I said Yes..this bus Does go there..A while later,while waiting for the bus to go ar..my skill of talk-to-strangers stormed into me.I continued speaking to her,asking question like.."how long have you been in singapore?" "Do you know how to speak english?" "Why are you going there?" "Is it difficult studying in singapore?" LOL..i DID that! in fact MORE. Well..She said she's looking for a job while studying in Singapore Poly.So i gave her my number and told her of the banquet job i have in hand.It's flexible and good $$. When we arrive, since it's her first time there, I (though not knowing MS that familiar) just followed her to find the place.Damn! it's difficult to find ok.keep turning around.LOL then we went to the directory, they put the map SO HIGH..both of us cannot see!!! Never mind.Just try my luck.We managed to find the place.lol..Lucky i'm there,if not she'll be SUPER lost!

Well,another lady lost her way while looking for Ritz Carlton main entrance.How cool is that.two in a day.LOL. I left for work then....Super late already! anyway.shall Stop here first.I need to chao* to work first.Tonight tell you more!

Wrong bus..

2007-04-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm drunk! in my mind at least! I think it's because of the weather that i'm feeling the uneasiness in my head..Very dizzy and giddy..DO not loiter outside so often if it's going to rain.Cause the weather are CRAZy! if it's hot,it'll be soooo hot,when it's raining,the heat from the ground rises.And those,when consummed can be very unhealthy!

It's Melissa's birthday today! 25th April. Li rong's one was last few weeks and Lynn's one is coming..the 28th April. Three of them April babies.Mummy Wendy prayed for April babies just now in choir.Yupps and this year will be the year father lord will blessed them exeedingly above all the riches that he have.That they'll have great health and prosper in every way they're called to do.April babies..Happy Birthday!! Mine's coming too! September! LOL..(ahem,remember hor!)

I did something dumb today.Mummy and I were supposed to be going to woodlands centre to play pool.I told her:"856 and 950 can take to centre you know?" she asked me back,you sure anot? of course i've convinced her cause i DID see bus 950 in that stop .and also the bus 950 came just in time.I asked her,sure ok..and we boarded.
We were squeezing in the bus,but it's alright.i'm there,so it's considered FUN.Suddenly she told me:" Nak?(child) are you sure this is the right way?" i told her pridefully :" Of course lah,never mind going by this way,sure go out to the singapore road one!"

A secondary school girl was giggling,i thought it was cause of the way i sounded that she giggled.But i was Sooo Wrong! The bus continued journying into Malaysia checkpoint and both of us were shocked! i've never been in here before. I wondered for awhile then ask the girl..:"excuse me,is this bus going to stop here,must we go down..?" The girl told us that this bus will continue IN to malaysia and i was like WHAT THE!! sure anot?? everyone left the bus and now my mum and I don't know what to do.so we asked the bus driver for advice.He told us to go up and find a cisco policeman upstair and to ask him what's next.So we did,and yes,he copied our IC and guided us.Damn! for a moment we thought we're done! But it's fine..We managed to make our way back to REAL singapore and continued playing pool.

A Picture to remember we were lost.LOL

I saw an old primary school friend of mine in the pool place.Was shocked cause it was him that i wonder ,is he still alive? did he make it out of gangsta's life?But it don't seem like,In a way that i think.I told my mum to hold on to go over and say Hi. I did but he just looked at me like i'm some kind of *pretty alien-is.I was kind enough to say Hi to him,he replied :" Uh .." i asked :"how are you?" he replied :" Uh.." something like.."Ya..." thats all you KNOW! What the..i still remember his name lah.. (Goh Wee Huat) my ex-classmate ok.Nothing much changed.just taller abit. At least god answered my prayer.He allowed me to see my three primary school Guy friends. Ben Ho,James Lek and Wee Huat. Nothing of them Changed..LOL..Only Ben Ho,he became thinner.

Anyway.My day ended the same way most of the night.Chat on phone and poof to bed.Alright.Since i'm done with today's entry.I'll just sleep early tonight.Dwell into my hiding place....Nights people!

Sorry ar..side track abit first.this picture was supposed to be done long time ago.But i only got it done now.LOL..Cool eh.Different designed symbolises different us.! Oh yeah!! ..Very cool i think.We made it a point to wear if every wednesday,for Choir practice. Melissa,Lynn,Li rong and Sarah.

I seriously need to turn in now.Cannot take it.My head is spinning!!!

Kampong and Lynn

2007-04-24T11:58:00.000+08:00

I miss all my friends! But i'm glad there such modern communication programme of MSN. I just hope they'll know i miss them not by, needing me to be there but by my heart that they'll feel my presence! Kim,it applies to you too K! Just know that! I have both you and Ting OK!

Can this be love?

I’m feelin’ right now

I know for certain I’m feelin’ right now

I don’t recall ever feeling this way

Tell me what does one say

The one who makes me feel this way

It's lyrics lah! think what! So good ar..write till so pure.Haha..Sang by Sarah Geronimo. A song thats very pure in feelings.

Well.Seriously,i miss kissing you know.I mean on a SERIOUS note, it's been so long since i've had my last kiss.(like one month plus ago..) hee..Long right?Can somebody (girls or guys) just do it to me..LOL.............*feeling warm now....* Just kidding..I can resist all temptations. Damn..i seriously think i'm crazy already lah.Nothing to write leh......it's always like this.When i start writing and feel as though i have many things to talk about,i ended up having a short entry,but when i start with nothing to write about.It'll be another long entry with many Lo-so -nes...Whatever.! =) i'm happy and i know you all are too!

Lynn and Jane! Hanging with her more often.She's like forever free one man! Crazy Wacko to be with.Also,the pictures nice right? LOL..Thats call... God's divine creation.In every unique way we're created.We're just too gorgeous lah...Seriously can't help it! Ask daddy god for it lah..He gave it to us one...bleah...I'm looking forward to put another gorgeous friend here..Kim yen..are you joining me yet??LOL..

Kampong Days people.Except for one.The white spec guy,He's a Soup Restaurant betrayer.Coming to join the MORE exciting group rather than staying with his people in his place..They're good people K.they won't bully neither take advantage..Cool eh.....

His love is too great,too overwhelming

2007-04-23T11:59:00.000+08:00

I have a guy friend,who actually thinks that there'll be no girl,dumb-ly willing to wait for him and to walk through this life with him,especially with the route he's planning to walk.Dumb guy right? All girls seems to have THAT nature in them (unless the guy really slash her of her feelings) .Even if there is,he claims,he wouldn't want a girl to do that for him too.It'll be very selfish! But like What the! Even if you don't want them to do it for you,she'll do it to others,might as well save it for yourself right?So that you won't miss out the GOOD things in life man! Too long to elaborate and i'm very lazy too ..Aiya..Damn negative one! BUT i'll be that Angel to actually bring light to

him..heee. Try me hunny!

Actually i wrote that cause i have nothing to talk about too! LOL..If not ah,i won't bring him into this entry! Lol,save the best for last mah..so i can shoot shoot shoot him! whahah..*evil grinz*

Anyway, to add on to that.I'm like the opposite lah! I know myself that i'm IN this world and not OF this world,for he have sanctified us.He had made me the special,holy,uncommon one.He had set me apart from all the other people in this world thats why i'm different.I wouldn't loose out any good things in life.And i KNOW it! And also OWN EFFORT to do things KILLS! Wouldn't anybody like to just REST in the work that was already DONE for us.Just believe he already had different goals and giftings in every individual .Striving so much with our effort will drain us out!Striving towards something that you "don't know what would happen in-the-future" when if you just simply believe in him,the Good future will be There already.Awaiting for us.He will lead us into the purpose (destiny call).Daddy god will make it happen for me!! *bleah* tongues OUT!*

Wherever i am,daddy god wants to make me special.He has uncommon Destiny for us all.He wants his glory to be shown in us.In lil' places,daddy god wants to pour his glory on us so when we reign in life,we will point back to Him and say "it's HIS glory!" So stop analysing his love for us.He's so good that his favour will be surrounding everyone around a believer.It will Flow,and Overflow in the lives of others.Isn't it so amazing to know such love actually do Exist? Not like ordinary love which could be Broken anytime you want it,or love which breaks your heart when you know the truth behind lies or even tearing your life apart when you found out another party.Thats Human-ly LOVE.. But His LOve remains! He will never try hurting you,instead,he's renewing his love for you.Filling your heart with the everlasting love.The more i'm saying it.The more i'm feeling it fill me up! Those are living words! I'm seriously SOO drowning into him.

His glory and grace are overwhelming me! ARGH! *Shiok!

Talk so much!But who cares? The reason why i'm saying all this is cause,i wanna tell you how EASY it is! to not worry so much and cast all things to daddy! woohooo! and let not your heart be troubled........ tell me.. Difficult OR NOT!!! Wack you sia if you say it's difficult!

Song: Jesus you're my everything

Jesus you're my everything

I have in you all that i need

Jesus you're my everything

You're my shepard in you i live!

My easy life

2007-04-22T01:57:00.000+08:00

Sorry! I've really not been Updating,well i know you all miss me already lah! *shy* Alright,where am i? Ok..My friend Daniel says that my english is very bad!! ARGH! Finally it's considered bad to someone.Woohoo!I'll learn from him then.From NTU mah,you know..N.T.U ..LOL crazy guy!

Made rather many new friends though,some seems fine,but some's really... (Shall not elaborate)

Ok,Back to wherever it should be.I've been Working again,like often now-s-adays cause Kampong Days is closing soon.Can you all like go Support them and Eat there for Lunch or Dinner.Cause i seriously think the food's there Not very bad,just that it's not really Known! The MUST TRY dishes are, Cereal Sotong/Prawn($10.50/$16.50),Homemade and Hotplate Tofu ($8.50),Chilli and Black Pepper Crab ($18),Fish Head Curry($25.50).The Fried Rice are Good too!!

I've some pictures to share though.Just some Randomly Picked pictures.

Venture Era People! House of Red.They're the people whom bring the life out of boring working job.So...Lets see how far i can actually go

The Red girls and One.....
Hot Red Guys!
Well,we've decided on a day to have Lunch together.Lynn's So Want to go Seoul Garden so Ok,there we are.Wearing Stripes as the dress code.Taking pictures,as usual,cause i'm actually THERE..Or else No one will.Thats Li Rong Aka Beloved and Melissa.

Jane and Lynn.stupid face! =)

Lynn wanted to crack eggs into the hot plate but too BAD! her poor skill in that cause the whole egg to spread.aiya..Poor matt,what a future wife to be. =)

See!this one taken once it's cracked,it became worst after that.
A candid shot which shows how Kan Jiong they are.LOL.Li Rong:" Sarah,why never tell me first.Not nice lah!!"
First Group photo.I stopped the staff to ask to take picture for us.When i called him,he thought i wanted HIS picture.. *roll eyes* but he's quite Macho and cute too! In Taka's Seoul Garden.See the two girls beside us..They look down!!! Argh! So shy for what,i think i'll pose too if anybody's cam almost on me. I didn't realised the two girls until my friend Jay* tells me so. Jay*'s another good guy that so far i've known.

SUPPOSED to be Angry face..but look at Mel.. WHAT IS SHE DOING?

Four of us bought the same kind of necklace but Different design.To choose the one that we like the most which also must represent us.

Parting pic.See you girls in choir practice soon! Remember to wear the necklace every Wednesday.

My Dick-head Brother!

lazy

2007-04-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

I don't really wanna blog now.Really lazy.But i'll update with lots of pictures..........Just wait for me...

A Liar her

2007-04-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

A Liar who wants NOT to be a liar.Will she be able to make it? She hated to lie,but she had to.To succeed in getting what she really wants.She wants the chance to roam free without any hassle or even to report.I know she didn't mean to hurt her loved ones thats why she lied her way through to not let them know or to worry.To let them feel that she's still the girl who have changed for the better.I know she had changed cause she feels much more guilty now than before,when she didn't even bother to want to think to want to change.

Her parent are deeply hurt,but she's hurt even more.Especially when they condemned her being a true liar who will never change.She cried and they said stop those tears,why even shed them when she's planned them to happen.To cause grieveous pain to be in them,to see everyone breaking down crying not their hearts out but those blood flowing in their stream.That was the extreame already,how far did she want to see her family go down.She really didn't do it purpose,but none of them believe.

Screaming on the top of their voice that could be heard by neighbours but yet whom didn't bother much.The liar just cried ,releasing all her sorrows into the white soft paper-like substance.The white paper were accumulated,but not because she's happy all this are happening instead,pondering on why even starting all those nonsense.

She told me she promised herself not to lie again.Not to be a liar anymore.She didn't want to spoil the happy family that she imagined it to be.She know it'll be a perfect one.She know it would be More perfect without her around,but there'll be lesser jokes,lesser fun,lesser laughter.She wants to bring the best out of everything she's gonna do. She did not condemn herself though she's being condemn.She knows she's different,and she'll prove it.

Accident in Woodlands

2007-04-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

*Switched on TV, SJ Channel News Leisure*

A report on an accident today,2nd April 2007

3 Bus collided onto each other resulting in a blockage of road.

It happened around 4:40-5 pm when 3 bus collided onto each other.Along the woodlands Ave 3 main road.The accident which involved a Private Bus and 2 SMRT bus.It was obviously thinkable that it was the private bus that banged the 960 bus first then came behind another bus 75 that banged onto the private bus.Both front and back was hit and crushed very badly onto the private bus.Pictures will be shown later below on the damaged done.

Commotions getting bigger and Reporters,photographer,traffic police all hanged around there.The road is blocked too.Cars are Jammed! Many passers-by were standing around viewing the accident.Just shows how Kpo singaporeans are,especially when there's a real life experience encountered by one of our reporter,Sarah Jane.Experience of how KPO and Kiasu singaporean is.

SarahJane:" Reporting Live, here in my house.The moment my mum got a call from my bro about the incident on the road, immediately i took my camera and wore my Slippers and ZOOM~ ran out to the carkpark and past it to the scene with mum too!!."

Now..Get the picture? of THAT particular Species?

Well..Crashed pictures now!

Private Bus crashed onto Traffic post

The Front Bus,960.Only backside injured

4-D?The aunties are talking about it. But only 3 numbers..
Smashed!

The 3rd bus.Banged onto the back of private bus and Turned away,hit the traffic post next.
A little commotion!
How badly it was Hit
Glasses Shattered!

Look at the blockage it'd caused!

My brother nearly took the first Bus,960.God's grace upon him that something lured him away from taking that bus...(his friends) Thankfully not much of injuries are inflicted .Only the drivers got it.Heard that they were sent to the hospital.Alright.Nothing much for today's news.Tuned in to SJ Channel News Leisure,Anytime when you're free! See ya guys.Till next time.

*Switch of TV*

Kbox

2007-04-02T01:51:00.000+08:00

Pretty girl is here to update again!

Ok.i've got some photo's which i took with the guys when we went to K box.I've been hanging with my basketball-cum-working buddies nowadays. So recently instead of just going to play basketball,Tiong Hui suggested going to Kbox.We went for K-lunch time and It's Cheap! 12 bucks per peeps.5 of us.As much as i dislike people thinking i'm a flirt or whatever,i still went out with them,4 guys and 1 princess...weets! It was a super last minute thingy,so i did not call any girls,they're either not free,working OR too late.Still i think i'm the joy amongst the torns.So i've tried to made them move..oooh....couldn't sing much of oldies cause i believe they know nuts about it.I'm not shy with them,in fact i still DANCE.Which in reality girls would shun themselves away,and avoid any embarrasment.i mean,for myself.WHO CARES??

As long as i'm doing any dirty things with them,which i KNOW i won't.I'm clean! Especially when i know they're my BUD's only and nothing more.When i'm also bent on being single for as long as i can.Cause i'm not interested in anyone at all.woohooo!! Aiya talk so much,not as though it's true they're totally interested in me.LOL.funny funny~ think too much already.

But i'll consider about the fact again that i'll remain single for the longest time.LOL.Cause i know i won't.Anyway.......Pictures ..

I told you before,i like group photo's.So,we took four!Lucky these guys did not hide,if not i'll be so super turn off Ok!! i'm the smallest again! wah~see the contrast! like 2 mountains on each side shielding the valley.

I followed them putting a "3" then..

I asked:"why do you all put "3" signage?"

Cause they followed the Machi band thingy one. -_-'' right? LOL

This is a candid shot!
Cheeze guys! Tiong is super emo.!
Tommy!what are you doing?!?(candid shot again)Frazer seems to like it anyway.Bah,fine!Simon's just enjoying the entertainment. FOC Ok!
Without me in the picture,of course bored lah!! LOL.. Now when Tiong's singing,worst..all sleep! LOL..funny..

Told you! with me in the picture,it's different!

Easy Ritz day..

2007-03-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

It felt easy today.Why ar? i wonder..There were 3 events in the evening if i'm not wrong.The Cornet event,MTM furniture thingy and sinofeast conference.Ah..whatever that all are called.

Complain: It was a moving around event so cocktail are to be a STANDING one.And you know what STANDING COCK-TAIL means? standing for 3-4 whole long hours with insufficient rest.Amazing right? 1/2 -1 hour of cocktail for normal events are crazy enough.What is 3-4 HOURS? It's deadly!! your hand will soften,arms will ache,muscles TENSED up! See that toughness? I've tried it before and i tell you, it is NOT FUNNY!! You will cry when you can't lift up that silver tray with 2 High-ball glass.It's ultra tiring.I will Jump the highest building to escape it.Thats how BAD and SICKENING it is...But................................

I'm not doing that today.I was appointed to be the so-call usher.To just guide the guest to the respective events they're attending.So it means,I'm RELAX-ed. Unlike some people,have to serve cocktail.Whaha..ELIZABETH aka bunny is it~...are you reading this.and i do mean YOU!! whaha..i LOVED it when i can tease her.It's somewhere i find pleasure in..Sick? am i? no i'm not..in fact if i am,she's sicker..LOL..woohooo!! come and get me lil' girl.BLEAH.. =P
(an entry written to irritate elizabeth tan)

Andrew Soh and Corinne's birthday! both same age! 17 years old.have a blessed year ahead yah.29 march is a special day for you peeps.Happy Birthday!Corinne must be with her boyfriend enjoying the romance that both can share together.Unwrapping gifts of love.so sweet.
Andrew got sabo-ed by Ritz carlton guys.They Sotchtaped him in red tape! thick one somemore.Hope he have a memorable birthday.

Alright. Shalom people.I love you guys.Approached me if you have any problem.Or call me to talk about it.i MIGHT be able to help you ok? Don't believe in my strength that i can help literally help but believe in him that he will give you an answer through me..alright?

basketball again!

2007-03-29T12:52:00.000+08:00

Played Basketball in the morning 8:30 with Tommy,Tiong Hui and Simon.Tommy fetch me to 369 basketball court.It was quite quiet today though but fun.Cause we've played 4 games.random 2V2 game,the dual i'm in won 3 games! woohooo! Happy! But i'm seriously dehydrated.So i've got to drink water.I don't know how else am i drinking PLAIN water if i don't run and sweat! Tommy fetched me back,when i wanna open the door,i saw the small purple keychain (which i've totally forgotten about it,cause it's so small.). I remembered those random gifts that i would shop for baby. But yups! no condemnation.A new Life ahead! Daddy god will bless me,and put the right one at the right time into my life..Yeah!!I trust in him!I'm still surving! Wooohooo! Alive and kicking!

Thank you daddy for them

2007-03-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

Daddy God indeed have put into my life many wonderful friends.In every aspect of my life,he placed the best ones around me.

Secondary Friend: My all-time best friend..-Chua Kim Yen.No matter how others sees her as,even if i'm not able to help her much as a friend.Just as long as i appreciate her.Nothing else will matter.We'll advise each other stuffs and all.She's like my mountain to lean on.
-Ting Ting also..she's my longest friend.for at LEAST 10 years. Seen her change alot.From childish-ness to mature lady.She's also a kingdom friend.
-Soke yee,she changed the most.But it's alright.No condemnation.She's also one of the best who treats me very well.

Choir-Princess Lynn, a friend whom i trust that daddy god placed her in my life for a very major reason,so as to be able to guide each other walk through life.A person i can really relate to and ask for heavenly's advice.-Beloved LiRong also-stupid face! but she's super nice.She's like an angel in disguised.really.just very HuH? with her..LOL.-Melissa too..another blurred princess.haha.Enjoyed their company during choir practice..

Banquet- Do i still need to say this? they've been in my previous few post. Let me announced..Elizabeth,Stacy,Yulianti,KimYeen,Corrine,Fiona. They're like, very CLICKY.we just Click.Different people from all walks of life but yet able to comprehend each other..Thank you abba! for putting them with me.At least they're better than some others......alot better..

I've so many friends.But i can't name them all,if your names not here and you're not happy. and think: " Stupid Sarah!!done so much for you yet my name's not there!" fret not! i apologised for that.If you cannot take it.Come find me.I'll make you known.really i wouldn't mind.In fact i want daddy god to make you permanent in my life.People whom can speak to me and improve me.Guide me.

Abba,i'm starting to go into your word.Let it flow through me,bring it out of me.Let me be of greater blessing to all this beloveds.Daddy as i begin to live each day ahead of me,the people i'm going to hang out with,Let them be filled with your love through me.And that you'll multiply each and everyone's crops! Let them be the top and not be the bottom.Put your favour in their eyes that they will see how great you are.And HOW MUCH you've ministered in my life.That will be a testimony of your word.Thank you daddy god.For all that you've made right for me.

Sentosa Trip with many photo's

2007-03-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

Great! i've been enjoying every moment of my life,ever since that BIG breakup.Very hard to forget,but.. i know with my human strength i'm not able to do this,but with my daddy's* help..I CAN!

The sentosa trip was awesome! (except for the fact that i'm DARKER now,which i've been trying hard to refrain from)But i cannot accept the fact that i'm not gonna enjoy myself when i'm out THERE ..(who care's about SUN now eh?)

I wore bikini for the FIRST time.oohh yeeeah..! i'm a bikini VIRGIN ,And i have to admit.i'm not FAT but i'm the chubbiest,fleshiest amongst those gorgeous Ritz girls.So please DON'T laugh at my tummy ok? i'm not ashamed,obviously not..But just..a lil' ..ahh never mind..chubbier peeps would be able understand that..

There were seven Princess there and all were in superb shapes except..AHEM......i would not put Up so much individual pictures,cause i seriously think group ones are nicer.And yes,it resembles our unity and all,so that it's fair to have equal number of faces inside,not just all me or whoever...ok?

i know if there's guys viewing these,they will compare the girls..

1st Guy:" wah,this girl prettier,sexier."
2nd guy:"no no,this one boobs bigger"
3rd guy:"no leh,i think this one super chio,with "bagus" body sia.."

4th guy:"ALL WRONG! all pretty and sexy,why compare?pervert!"

must be like guy number 4. See,he's more man! and also,we don't need comment on all this pics...so zoom off!!

We're on the way there!

Tourist Trying to get eveyone in..
The green Ladies..(what a coincidence)
Yulianti,Fiona(top) eliz,pauline (bottom)Yanti-pauline-fiona-stacy-sarah

Elizabeth+corrine soon joined us again..

We had picnic first! Everyone brought food and snacks,drinks and chips..We were all starving and we gobbled up the food till we had our fill.Then we headed to the sea.I don't intend to even dip myself in it..But No choice..Fiona was in already..Stacy was there saying:" i don't want to go in,have flesh-eating bacteria.." Elizabeth ran so far away when we wanna catch her.But in the end..all still went in.Mostly kena sabo-ed..it was fun overall..

Pauline made friends with some guys and they ended up coming to us and inviting us to have a game or two of volley wih them.I said yes on all's behalf after asking so many times and they can't decide still..Both teams never made beautiful shots of more than 7..what a loser..But it's alright..we've warned them that we don't know how to play.
I'm having blue-blacks now on the whole arm cause i'm also the one serving ball and giving first shot! After games with guys,we went to the restaurant by the sea-side and swam in the swimming pool.Since the guys are paying the drinks.We don't mind using the facilities.. We bathe and all.Getting late..going back ..

The tripod stand did the job..take pictures

FUN!

Splash!

Getting ready! for sea!

it's coming!
Pose people..ok..excellent
Tripod's job again! see..so easy.no need find people help us take!!
Tired already!
smile girls!
Candid Dancing..(credit-stacy)
Short to tall..but yanti is in jacket thats why in front..
i'm still the shortest..whahaha..

Touch me not...

Going back..after dinner

I saw Mr Timothy Chua in Sentosa,he said i'm very lucky to see him,cause others don't..and he's going back thailand this thursday..Damn i should take picture with him..It slipped my mind..Anyway

Fiona and Pauline went back by monorail,whereas the rest of 5 of us went back to entrace by bus.So both side separated.Had dinner in the hawker.All were tired..tanned. but i'm glad we've enjoyed ourselves overall...

Basketball+

2007-03-24T13:34:00.000+08:00

Played Basketball today with Tommy,Tong Hui,Yi jie(pri6 boy) and gangs..haha.First time i'm able to wake up at 7:30am when i slept at 3am..Tommy fetch me to Tekong park in his bicycle.Morning breeze indeed are marvellous.Very refreshing and of course,the best way to ease myself off any situation.Thanks bro's..

Those New guy friends i know are very crappy.But i don't know why,i enjoyed their company.(not because i'm a flirt..cause i'm telling you i don't do THAT).. in fact i'm always hanging with the pri 6 lil' boy.LOL...whatever it is..It was nice game today.i became a little yellow..gosh! look filipina ALRDY!! hee..

over..

2007-03-24T02:20:00.000+08:00

Ok..i'm feeling better now.It's over.I knew this day would come. Tired..

Stop! ok i'm bored

2007-03-23T01:24:00.001+08:00

Public Success,Private Failure .Whats the point of being so popular and known when your family OR relationship is in a mess...........sigh..

Damn that..whatever! Luckily there's a quote ,"thats what friends are for.." whoooo...Actually i really wanna travel all over the world now,AT THIS INSTANCE..I wanna know people of different ethnic and their living styles.I feel so bored here in Singapore.Other country dangerous? yeaaaa,i know, but somehow or rather i always feel so protected.Can someone please open a dance club for me to join or create a singing group with a place to belt out..arghhhhh!!

Never mind that TOO!! i'm feeling ridiculously bored here.i feel like shaking my bon leh,but feels stupid at the same time.NOW I'm trying to get through the phone to my boyfriend and DAMN IT....why is it always so bothering when i'm trying to get him.We've not met up for i think,2 weeks? or MORE..it's either him or ME................ who will be busy...sigh..

Oh Skip that! hate it when it's something bad..Fuck! Now something happier..i'm going to work Ritz tomorrow..yeah!! Can finally see my kaki's again.They're all working man!woohooo.Can crap together again.Whahahaha.Looking forward!

I seriously think i need to feedback to the Bus company that their buses have cockroaches.Small small ones.Because of the inconsiderate-ness of other freaks, people like us suffer?watching them crawl across the floor?eeeeyeeeerrrrr...Can't stand it..i HATE COCKROACHES....to the CORE!!!

Eugene's Last day..

2007-03-21T02:43:00.000+08:00

So tired ! I'm Sooooo LACK of sleep.My Princess sleep..sigh......but if i'm tired,then my boyfriend's one is Superly duper tired.He's busy setting up his second shop.One is Upper Thomson,the second one is in TOWN..woohooo~...May the favour of god be on him that his business will prosper..

Eugene's last day working today in kampong days.Supposed to have all of us treated to a Final supper .But only YuQi,Queenie,Yishan and Me are able to make it.. We're Sooooo Fickle minded.One minute this, the other that.Argh..Mind's set on Burger King then...actually it's considered quite CHEAP already to pay just 30 plus for a "supposed-ly Expensive meal" but well,we're NoT? greedy. Took damn alot of photo's cause it was raining ..heavy heavily.Droplets+ wind..*Chilled and Freezed*

Had lots of fun though.I mean,the fact that we've just finished work and Still continued for supper and photo-taking.What da ya think? Laugh all the time.Damn it..why am i always the clown..grrr.......BUT it's alright..i was there for a reason,to make people laugh.When there's laughter,it means *daddy is within us. Yeah...Thats my gift..

Left: Yi Shan,me,Eugene,Queenie

*Zi You Fa Hui..

She's mad! Yu Qi and Eugene [it's Candid]

* Extra*Queenie is Scary..

Yuqi just don't like me..(no choice)

Kampong Uniform!

Jailed* Pleading the camera woman for Drinks..*

TaaaDaaaa....Tall to short..Ladies Nights+ one Gay..
Yellow is Extra..Going Back soon..whahaa...and it's raining! 12 mid-night
We're gonna miss you man!
Eugene is my manager by the way.That's why celebrate.If normal staff like us..must we even hold such a thing.Whaha.... Oldest amongst us but youngest amongst the Managers.May his future be litted Up.And all that he's gonna do ,be a success........

BABY "dre-am"

2007-03-19T02:30:00.000+08:00

Sarah:"Oh yes,i know i'm a wonderful mom."

Finished work already.Same routinal stuff i'll do online.Check mail,friendster,listening to music.

I've got the urge to have babies man.I'm sure my baby will be very cute one !(thanks to the mother of course,Ahem..) They're Super duper adorable,very nice to cuddle with.I really yearn to have mine soon!

Excuse me ATTENTION to those who wants to have babies and are of age below 21.

DO NOT:

Have 1 baby and many* daddy's.

Marry those without STABLE income

Club vigourously (if you do)

Have it with the same age as you. (it's only a burden)

Let babies go hungry.

Do not ABORT (Damn It ,don't you get it.They're SWEET LIVES too precious to be taken away.If cannot support why even HAVE them.)

LOOK!So CUTE,can you BEAR to harm them?

Please ar..the MOST important thing is money.Make sure you're able to support him/her.Don't have them there for FUN.Please review every aspects of your life FIRST before having sex and getting pregnant.Do not act on impulse..THINK of the Factors. A cliche known to the world.."5 mins of pleasure brings in 9 months of pain."

For me, I've reviewed already.My momsie wants an ANG MO baby.(so do i..heehee) they look like walking dolls with ocean blue or forest green eyes.Misty greys and hazel browns are nice too!! but thats if we're lucky...*gua~ gua~ gua~ kuaaa........My dad's fine with any actually.He LOVES children.

I've a stabled income boyfriend which,i'm hoping would be my hubby ,provided all goes my way..as in...AIya i know it myself.I wanna have one soon leh,i'd loved to dress my girl up and walk my boy.

My studies? well i can pursue them still like DUH.bring my baby to school lor,breast-feed them while copying notes.change pampers when it's my break,pat them to sleep when i'm reading my text..whahahaha..*dreaming*

Indeed i am dreaming.But there's mom as young as 9-14.Some even with the second child already.Those who aborts,They'll regret it definately.Babies will haunt them back..i'm not trying to scare you man.But really in some cases.Their baby do "visit" them.Well it's a psychological thingy.Neither You nor I will understand it till we're in their shoes..

Father,you are the real creator of these lil' lives.And that you'll watch over them from above.Bless the innocent hearts with all your love lord.They love you because you first loved them.and also they'll grow to be wonderful man and woman of god.Show them the way,the truth and the light.

I WANT BABY LAH..............................................

ministry gathering..

2007-03-15T02:28:00.001+08:00

People change. Lives transform. Discipline swayed. World's turning different.

I wanted to go to salon and shape my eyebrow .The salon that i like,is 8 bucks.[choice OUT] second place i went.5 bucks [CLOSED] .So i went to try out a new one,it's on the 2nd level HDB.5 bucks. when i went in i saw an indian girl. I was blur-ified. Wondering why so young.

Two girls put me on the "operation" chair,and one of em' powdered my brow and started stretching a thread-like thingy.I even asked her again.." er, excuse me i'm here to trim my eyebrow.."

she ask me to stretch down my eye-lid.Suddenly *thrrrrreeeeeeeed*thrreeeeeed* sound-like started.Scare me!! she's using the traditional method!! THREADING...SO PAINFUL SIA.. tears just kept on welling in my eyes..It just kept on going till my next eye.YIKES....*traumatised by that incident..will i still go back there..?

Whats Up man,whats up? i still prefer the past.I'm not trying to be an angel or WHATEVER but it's just, not what i wanna see. Never mind about that.As long as i'm righteous in him,all things falls right for me.

Music Ministry Gathering today and there were so many people man.The Choir,Hokkien n' Chinese Choir,Children's ministry,Campus and DARE ministry,Musicians.Wah seh..so many...But Decon Jack was talking all the way after buffet dinner hence not much of fellowshipping with new fella's.

Bored..My money's draining fast..OK..i shall stop going out now..Only work and home,Unless neccessary..

[Edited] Bread talk's orange.

Did not edit.so dull right?

Sure i am glad i'm walking the righteous path..thank you Abba.

Give thanks for today.

Oh Lord, how i thank you for bringing me to where i'm supposed to be.the favour that has been upon me was not by my human strength but by your love which enables me to love the rest too.I cast all that i am into your hands,i surrender,i submit.Abba that you will bless me the abundance of your kingdom..Thank you for loving me and not seeing my flaws.Thank you for accepting me from where i fell.amen.

Ritz Carlton Ladies Out!

2007-03-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

Was late again .Today was an ALL-GIRLS occasion..For ritz girls..and definately had lots of fun.Crazy Lots! Yulianti's very jap..she suits it i have to say..

Though it was SUPPOSED to be a long day,the next moment you know it,it's OVER.dang~ But we were cam-whoring man! woohooo (cause i'm there~ ah like DUUHH)

We played pool and GUESS what? All are real NOOBIES..Wah Lao Eh! took about 30 mins to complete one round.And i'm like the trainee-teacher guiding them..Which i think they also don't get it.(THATS why i ADMIT i'm TRAINEE mah..)

Well don't have my Pool-ing pictures .Cause...I'm the photographer ALSO for the 30-40 mins Game..(heeheehee.. all in their best pose..)

BTW..

Elizabeth signature skill-Super DUPER Tyco queen

Stacy's -tapping and hit air queen

Yulianti's- Firm but still miss queen

Kim's-anyhow-hit-also-can queen..

LOL! this was sUpposed to be stupid candid shots of them..LOL!
1st Horny to the stick,2nd rubbing herself against it.3rd stroking the tip.

Of course! next was to SING..KBOX Marina Square!! thats where the devil released it's poison.Girls are deadly there! too bad..not shown here..That Elizabeth and stacy sing so many songs! But their voice are very cute..like lil' girl..Elizabeth who claims her voice is MAN turns out to be crapping..LOL..so girly lor..whahahaha.

Whereas Stacy's voice DAMN YOUNG... no kidding MAN..it is like 4 year old girl singing.i was ,AMAZED*!

Group Pictures.. Trying to be SEX-y can? damn it..

Other regular pictures.Very focused to the screen..(oh ya..forgot to add..Elizabeth's trying to LES-. tried to seduce all of US..especially S.K.Y(kim).. snatching Kisses from SKY..

My favourite Picture.thats why i put it so BIG..

Today ended in Marina Loft. Had Dinner before leaving. our day just spent this way..how other ways to end it then?

My Updates in Life..

2007-03-10T02:06:00.000+08:00

I've not been updating cause i've been working EVERYDAY...well at least,almost.

I'm beggining to feel attached to Ritz man! My friends there are Awesome..(and i do have to highlight-FRIENDS) as in all my kaki's. Especially Eliz,Kim Yeen Yulianti,Stacy,Fiona,Corrine..

Gosh! too many of them already.There's guys and girls obviously.Working have been FUN EASY FUN cause they're there. Like all the cock's that we'll "tok".

Tropicana Event..and of course (barry) is a cute GAY..Fiona,Sarah,Eliz,Barry

Eliz,Sarah,Corrine..

Lynn and her Drain-bowling skill + Pizza Hut+Pool+"fellowshipping"+Lights+craps

I've been eating RESTAURANT food consecutively for 5-6 days.Be it the Cheapo kind or the expensive kind (to me it is..). and i'm not talking about Fast food or food court ya know~!
*credits to Eliz,Yuqi ESPECIALLY LYNN.."

Well,in case anyone's curious about where i'm planning to move on after this (O'level not good enough so..No poly.Neither am i hoping to enter ITE (not that i'm pinning in downwards,but i don't like the course..) I'm pursuing Hotel Management in SHATEC school. Very General?? well i've PLANNED already how i'm doing this. and also,i intend to pay this course myself (er..maybe with a little help from papa first.) to be AHEM~ independant on my own..

He carried me with my two legs hanging ON HIS SHOULDER and put on the top of the Van..So scary,So HIGH.. Sometimes he really make me think.... some of you get it,some don't..

I'm wondering how my Secondary school friends are doing.Are they still Alive n' kicking like me,or half-dead mice below the cabinet..(either rotting or slacking) .Many of them are going to Poly ..Woohooo hurray for them.indeed their efforts pays off well.

"Things can happen in the world but it will not happen to me.."

Mum's first time .... ........

2007-01-12T03:33:00.000+08:00

I'm not surprised at all that my mum's first time was today.Of all her years, it was her first time understanding how this goes.How it leads to that place and what actually made it happen..

She asked me what's that thing called.Though she's seen it from afar, she never knew how it looked from near.And yes..i told her.It's called the Esplanade.

This was taken On a rock stand..

Someone took this for us when he saw us struggling with the camera timer..

I've to put some of the pictures here..Cause,my mum's so DEPRIVED from photo taking.. She looks young don't she...well she IS...anyway..i enjoyed my day with her..(like always)

Purposely had this bigger cause my mum's (a camera nerd) is trying to snap shot me in toilet..But FAILED!!!(psst..i'm still shitting you know..my pants still down) LOL..

PATIENCE needed for this POST...Sexy and desired novel...

2007-01-11T03:30:00.000+08:00

I Just bought a Liz Caryle's novel ,titled "One Little Sin" ..Damn! Like any other normal thick size book..it took me just one day to complete at least HALF of it.While reading it,i could feel it directing and playing it's own theatre in my mind.My imagination just ran and gone with the flow.

It was described so distinctively that It Became all so real and i FELT it in my body,in my nerves,my veins.I believe it's like all the other romance novels.Though this is only the second romance novel i'm indulging myself into.There's differences!!There's more erotic features in it (which i normally do prefer..) all the words of sexuality,Love and Suspense..

The guy (Sir Alasdair) is 36 and the girl (Lady Esmee) is 22.Imagine~! HANDSOME Sir was a womanizer,DEMURE lady was a virgin. Drunkard Alasdair made Esmee's Drunkard mum pregnant during New Year celebration,2 years ago.When Esmee's mum passed on,Stepfather threw her and the Baby to the street..(why??read it yourself).

Alasdair is well-knowned for his scandalous acts.Interested in Married womEn especially..does not goes home often because he's always staying with a woman..

Esmee went searching for Sir Alasdair (whom she assume is the father of the baby,when her mum said so..),on a long road..Finally in his place.She made up SOME stories which made him change his mind for them to stay......Sir thought Esmee was barely 17 or 18..But was said otherwise by Esmee,declaring she's 22..(Over LEGAL AGE..~)

It all began this way..

"you are tired,homesick,and still grieving.Your mother is dead,and your responsibilities are grave.I am sure you must sometimes feel quite ALONE in the world.May I not show at least a little concern?"...........felt his arms coming around her,strong and sure...

"Esmee,look at me,"he whispered."Please."

She turned her head,all but begging him to deepen the kiss.His mouth molded to hers,pliant and HUNGRY.

Alasdair

groaned,a low,agonizing sound,and slid his tongue deep inside her mouth.God,it felt so strange.So wonderfully sinful....Her breath came last and shallow now.she rosed to her tiptoes and let her hand slip round his waist,then up....... A warm ,heavy hand slid down her spine, lower and lower until it settled hotly over her hip,circling and massaging through the fabric of her skirts..

....Ever so delicately,he had his way with her,sucking and nipping down the length or her throat,until she would have agreed to anything he asked.....

.....He knew what she wanted.He undressed her with the efficiency of a practiced rouge,divesting her gown and corset..EVERYTHING..........He knew he was going to regret it;knew there was going to be a terrible price to pay...........Esmee showed no embarrassment when his HUNGRY EYES raked her bare body.........he was mesmerized by the soft curves of her hips,her round swell of her breast.......

Esmee felt a sweet,hot heat go curling through her belly the instant his mouth touched her breast.Instinctively,she CRIED out,her body rising to his sign of desire... he pushed her leg away almost roughly and turned his attention to the other breast..............he drew the tip of one breast between his teeth.............."relax your legs,love." whispered."Open for me,Esmee.Let me soothe you..... His tongue slid deep,teasing her wetness,heightening her desire,until it touched her very core and made her body TREMBLE..........."

what happened next??........when they were together ALONE.and him looking into her green eyes..drawing nearer to her breath........did Alasdair have her fresh,innocent body? overcomed by temptation to ROB away what he DESIRED deep within?to release the devil that was building in him especially for her.............

Was Esmee herself able to withhold the smell of his sweat and the golden hair of his?the charm which she was blinded by?the fiery spirit in her which WANTED him as much as he Wanted her? What did she say when she was GRABBED by his hand tightly against his body?she gasped.........Don't.. .. .. .. .. .. .. stop...............................(did anything happen after that?) **Like mother like daughter.......**

Damn it!! READ IT.........LOL ... Intensed feeling....freaking horny..!

a year that starts amazingly..

2007-01-09T03:03:00.000+08:00

First entry for 2007..How exciting?!?

Recently..i'm surrounded by my family,working pals and choir peeps.Simple? yeah,i'm trying to cultivate that simplicity in me! Nothing too complex which makes my life so miserable..

Just to update you guys.

I'm currently holding two jobs now, as a waitress in both a restaurant and Hotel.

Well,since i'll be placed in one corner doing nothing,why not put to good use.(serving guest or customers,are my forte..ain't it?)

Some pictures to share though.

Hope it's roughly allowing you to tell how's my life been going..

During the 45 mins blackout..

Choir

"Daddy" i need you..

Working and School Peeps

RITZ CARLTON HOTEL

KAMPONG DAYS

Did i tell you how much i LOVE my mum and dad?they're my life..

NEW CREATION CHOIR Soprano's

still the same boyfriend..Time's Up..changing time..LOL

Actually Life has already been improving for me. [ Come to me,all you who are weary and burdened,and i will give you rest.][Matthew 11:28] .

Coinicidently a uncle from my church gave me that.When he reminded me of that verse..i felt refreshness flushed in me..I could always asked for more,for he answered my doubts through good mediums.

So how do you think my lifes been? Colourful as always right?

leaving!

2006-11-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

Yoz! i'm here to say im goin GENTING..for 3 days 2 nights.will be back on saturday! See ya guys..will update more pictures! Woooohoooooo...more horny post coming Up!! lol "L"ust kiddin!=)

The power of Woman's closet..

2006-11-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

I've not been doing much today,and the ONLY thing i did was to re-arrange my wardrobe.I did it! it's so freaking messy ,i thought i have so much clothes..but when i arranged it.It turned out to be so little. (cause i've sent many back to philippines ok..to my cousins and relatives..)I'm blessed with too many clothes that god wants me to share with the less fortunate children.. Everywhere clothes.I have Two cupboards of those clothes man..

Let me share this part of my life with you.I have a very strong LIKING towards this ,it's like... without it i cannot leave the house,without it i cannot move around,without it i don't have the sense of security,WITHOUT it ,i am NOT A GIRL!! And yess....it's my..Undergarments!! wherever i go,i will visit the lingerie shop.Even if it's just to get a peek,i will look at it with dreams wanting to have them for my own..the smooooth-ness and tenderness of how each passes through your arms,when you embrace it with all the graceful-ness god had instilled in each and every ladies..

While arranging my closet,i thought of something stupid but INTERESTING ..(maybe to myself,well thats me..) Please be Aware that the following contents are not meant for people who think it is DISGUSTING.INSANE.IMPROPER.

The Combination of my Bra Sets and G-strings/Thongs..

The "Xiao Long Bao" set.So cute~

I have different kind of designs for Thongs cause my aunt sent me a few from USA.The "S" size there is equivalent to our "L" size man..Huge mama'a they've got there!whooo hoooo..

All time Fav.Diamonds on the Butts.

I have ONE weird kind of Undies to be exact,G-string.I don't know how did i get this but there's a Slit in the center. LOOK! OPEN WIDE AND SEE..Thats for Having Sex ONE LEH..NOT FUNNY! =.+

THAT IS YUCKS! HOW DID I EVEN GET THAT? DID I BOUGHT IT BY MISTAKE??

I have another kinky one..haha..half butt can see..this one is nice and I LIKE..and also,in case you don't know how does a G-string and Thongs look like.All shown below.. Purple is the Kinky one..Pink is Thong and the last one is G-strings. It goes straight to your Ass-hole..very uncomfortable one.but used to it can already!!

Anyway,back to today.well there was a point around the night that i couldn't take it anymore and felt that i have to write a message .The loneliness that i'm feeling is not comprehend-able.I couldn't stand that feeling.My tears came down while writing it and Yes.a *penguin chatted with me suddenly,when *penguin don't usually do that.*Penguin was the ONLY one.(i'm not asking the rest to do the same lah..=) )Thats why i thank *penguin so much for doing so.Though it might sound a little "huh??" to him..Thank you so much. That was all i needed at that point of time . well I kept the message short and i sent it out..haha.. -to whom did i send it?? whoever you shall think it to be-

My italian friend jeky was always online.So we chatted almost all the way.Hah and he said i resemble one of his female italian friend.we're like the long lost oriental sisters.One from italy and the other from Singapore.He just said he feel it.and doesn't even know the reason why.Thats my friend. The right side one..

i don't have tongue sticking out leh.thats the closest i can get.(i think) lol.. She's older than me Ok..Haha =.+

(P.S sorry chun leong..borrow your face as background ok? Haha..alright now..chill guys..we're both pretty as ever ..=)

Hair Treatment..

2006-11-14T02:22:00.000+08:00

Chatting with my good friend (Kim) now .and we're being so sex-itive.A guy friend of hers visited her at night ,stupidly suggesting Threesome to me.. never mind..i would rather wear some slinky purple nightgown,butt-fitting tong and masturbating with my bolster than having THREESOME!! In case you left a point out,i am a very very "SHY" girl ok! LOL.. =X

Visited the Jean Yip Salon this afternoon,for some treatment thing which cost $128.My mum got it as voucher when she signed up a package thing.The place was a little alien-ish to me.i've neither steped in to view the place nor been to Jean Yip to either cut or wash hair.(would rather spend those extra-pathetic money on some other "pathetic" salon,which cost almost HALF the price lesser..)

The process of my hair treatment all compiled to one..

But i have to admit,the one thing i like about that place is ..they look smart in their dressing,in their own stylish manner.The treatment took about one hour? cause my hair is really DRY after dyeing and highlighting. (at least they're thoughtful to allow the voucher to work it's best) .The lady helped me straighten my hair.WAH!! So nice..but i look sooooo mature~! and also..Hey..i Look good with straighter hair also OK..don't play play..

The hair became a little more NatuRaL as time passes i should say.And cool.i took pictures like almost continously.My mum's giving me the , "whats happening to my DAUGHTER!!"kind of look. Haha..

Shots of natural looking hair

Protruding eyes..

I wouldn't be washing hair for the next 2 weeks.So please refrain from coming near me,consequences shall be unaccounted for OK ?The smell of the treatment is nice,but it's TOO NICE hence i feel like puking. It's so unbearable and it's making my head spin! *woooo oHhh* *spinning ,twing~ twing~ twing~*

i seem to have quite a few New experience these days.Lady "mountain turtle".Haha..New to me,not new to You all..

Lonely girl now roaming around life.Awaiting for the right afinity to arrive.Always wanted someone to be there not only mentally but physically.Passing each day wondering whether her dreams are unreal,un-practical?How ever i may be in the future lies in the hands of my *father and not in the words of all puny human beings..

Viewing Flats! and Tng's family day..

2006-11-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

*Praying first to ask God for a GOOD choice of apartment* (with no Cockroach and no Lizards;well at least lizards that don't make noise.. )

Ok..my prayers will be answered..i'll BLOG it uP to be a testimonial!!! i've got the queue number of 3000+ and it's NOT funny among so many who are planning to buy a house around Seng Kang and Punggol area.Ok..lets say..An ideal Home for my family is [to have 4 room.Near the sea area.Either 14th or 18 storey.Convenient Transport of LRT and MRT.Nearby shopping centre and Market also.] is it too much?? LOL.i Don't think so.it will soon be MINE..

Behind "bars" I went to view 5th uncle's flat just now.and it's VERY SMALL.i mean it's like..Not even able to Fit my bed and ALL my furnitures! and yah..not to forget,thats ALREADY the MASTER-BEDROOM.what about MY room.SO SMALL,TINY,inadequate for me.but.. it's easier to clear/manage,very cozy,very..my OWN!! . LoL!! there's always good things to think about when bad points are SHOT up to my attention..

Actually nothing much was done today,just the usual gathering among the TNG's family.We walked around punggol plaza and compasspoint..But the MOST thrilling part of the day was the taking of LRT. HaHa! i know,it sounds a little kuku* but really what.. this is my first time.I was amazed by the quietness at various location.But it's totally cool,like TOL-TALLY..woohoo! and i'm TALL enough!! =) In LRT station..

Don't stop Me!! Please meimei*?

i am guitaring a small Guitar..

The Kuku-iest face..

I've took tonnes of picture,but when i was editing,ERROR in programme.I would understand if it's for ONCE.I never gave up and continued editing the same picture again.Damn! 2nd time.Error again! ..... ...ok... cool it... i am fInE?! i thought to myself:"it's alright sarah,do it again.Just remember to do it S..L..O..W " (cause i thought i did it too fast;just my silly THOUGHT") so i reopened it again and Ta..daaaaaaa...!! it went soooo... NOT FINE! argh.. .. despite my carefulness into doing the editing, It OCCURED PROBLEM AGAIN!!its the THIRD time.Believe it or not? GOSH..who could be as irritating as the programme??..I'm Fuming Mad,Pissed,hot-Headed.What the heck is wrong?!?! LOL ..never mind..I'm CHilled now..(frozen to be exact) i'm here Updating .I'll do it again tomorrow.I don't believe that i can't get it right.

Well lets see Sarah's Face today..oK?edited it just now before problem occurs..And it went so NICELY.. =)

She's my cute cousin.and how she spent her day today..LOL

Look at ME!Picture

Of the day..

what a way to spend a day..!

2006-11-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

Today's like a totally ..Slacking day! What the heck..Was supposed to do many things but it ended up doing Nothing at all..I just Hate it! I need to work..And working does help alot in "killing time"..Well good for kim, she's working already..Boredom will be robbed away by Pandora's Box.

Apparently when i wake uP in the morning,i was already reprimanded by my father for choosing to go Genting still despite the tight cash we're facing now..But he said "up to US" (my bro and me). Hence being the more active, wildlife chaser, i said YES straight away.My uncle's paying for me,so i hope this will be ok with my dad.Sigh..

My art fell off again!! argh..What could i do next?? i sat quietly on my bed then flipped through my shelves and i found my COLOURING BOOK!! Oh yes..the thought of colouring my "fairytale princesses" book (which i longed to do but didn't have the TIME) was so luring .But when i started colouring the castle.. Mr Boredness visited me again.

I opened my cupboard and saw the Cross-stitch "fella" lying in there.I started figuring out how to continue it from my mum's work (8years ago).It was all ALMOST wrong!! i had to unstitch it patiently and make sure no unnecessary holes are created..*Whew* tough joB! But not any longer i stopped doing it (simply too "dead"). Ate my dinner first then DId My nails..WOohoo..Just dark red with blue dots.So deprived from my woman-ish side since exam period..

-DA CHANG JING- is Up at 7:30 pm and YEAH!! easier to evaporate time this way..it's a 2 hour Show. Proven fact: Watching the TV is a terrific way to indulge your time in. Man's best friend is dog..Sarah Jane's best friend is TV.. *ah huh.. oh yeah! yeah! ah huh..*

I'm moving HOUSE! oh yea! maybe to around punggol,seng kang .When i was younger, my parents will asked me about moving house..I will Give the *huFF puFF* face and walk off OR i will say *Don't want lahhhhhh..i like woodlands..* but i accepted it readily this year when it was brought up again..maybe cause i've finished secondary school LIFE..and i want to MOVE ON..what about my lil' bro? LOL .(not my problem anyway**) apologise for that thoughts bro but it's true right?? =)

ALright ..Thats all about today..Nights..!

Formally starting for blogs..

2006-11-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

I've already so-call finish my O'level so I will be updating my blog. Mainly about the life that i'm going through with christ leading me. This is going to be a living testimonials for people to see. i know it might sound kinda "Blah bLah" and "whatever" i mean..Who cares right?

Did math paper 2 in the afternoon and the results can be predicted now; fail! but it's alright.it's done already anyway.I have one more [science paper 1] and my O's are DONE!! Freaking fast! really "a blink of the eye" man.. i can't believe it,the moment that i longed for..for a very long time..

Anyway, shan't probed on that paper .I went for bible study today,mum's serving choir so i accompanied her. My cells don't like me to be early..but with god's grace we're early. Today's message was marvelous. Preaching is through a video, a video that Pastor Prince preached to hillsong Australia in mid-october. It's not the method of preaching but what's in the message .

What is TRUTH when you don't BELIEVE it?

Wife: Darling do you love me?

Husband:Yes i do love you. (this is the TRUTH..But..)

Wife: *sceptical thoughts* (when woman don't believe hence living in low self-esteem,rejected,sad)

--> So Moral is..Know and BELIEVE thats God's love is for me..For when I BELIEVE THAT, his love for me will grow exeedingly.I will be happy and elated to recieve that. It applys to our everyday life too..Lets just see how you apply it.If you believe,the message will help you.

(you must be thinking ,what if it's a LIE..asked god..he will answer you.)

I had doubts before and i know it best myself. "He" is always around me,whenever i called "daddy help me!".In WHATEVER the circumstances are.I LOOK up to him.

I wouldn't say all this for the sake of saying.cause i could feel it..are my feelings part of just hallucination?..My exams especially,i did not study AT ALL for my O's,but it was prayers and his grace that brings miraculous wonders of me remembering all things that i've learnt.He gave me the strength and wisdom.And i believe i did better than i normally do.

That girl is father's New Creation Girl..

After church which was in the 10's time onwards. I had supper with mummy! we went to The Asian Kitchen in suntec city. She paid for it ..My parent's dating place after bible study..haha.. I love my mum and i took photo of her and me.We drank Longan red dates..i thought at first that it was a "oh PLEASE..Yucks*" ..but it's rare that my mum will like something like that..so i took a sip..and YUP..it's quite nice..LOL..very Sweet!!

My Mother!!Sophisticated,lovely and beautiful.

The Elegance of "Golden Hair Awards" ladies..

[Living fact] Under god's grace,

She still look young,and will always be young..

+We Love, because he first LOVED us+

"Put my eyes not on my love for god,

but my eyes on his love FOR ME"

..for his love is always CONSTANT ..

i'm here again

2005-12-17T02:09:00.000+08:00

Ok.Here i am to start..

Whats Up with relationship man?i wonder.So many asking for advice but actually,come to realised it.it's nothing at all ! All you're gonna faced it ALONE..advice you can only listen...to heed..but it won't do much..you gotta solve it yourself man! Better still..let nature take its course..

I'm so bored..feeling so tired! working..working..i won a mickey yesterday in the arcade.. which cost me 14 bucks! but it's alright though.for one could easily cost till 20 plus!sometimes luck can be there but not always!i've spend the same amount to0 today.buT sigh..i've got nothing..alright thentake caree

gOtta chao!

My Life starts anew..As i write my life again..

2005-12-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

Now my life starts again,as i write this new post.

I've been pretty happy this few days,well maybe mainly because i have a super clown friend of mine working with me.The amount of enthusiasm of me going to work are much higher than i normally will have.We're rather idiotic and moron-ic during work time,though with the status he's holding compared to mine.His smile is like this D_____D haha.Very cute!The sound of his laughter..LOL* muahahahahaha..cannot *tahan* How could i even imagine?i Wonder.

Well ! same things happening almost like erm..eVerydaY? i've been playing Pool with my colleague,manager and friend.I'm improving!! oH yeah,indeed i am.nOthing much would be happening in my life..well.Just some same old routinal days of me meeting my sweetheart and soon after meeting ,i'll be ready for work..**sometimes i'm kinda frazzled but then again..It's covered with his sweetness, so it's like nothing also!** I'm a lucky girl and he's a lucky gUy ..

I miss my darling. -_- Sigh bUt..i'll be meeting him in The Morning.So happy.I can't complain when i'm with him,but yet when he's not with me.i'm like so Bored.=( If everyday i could just get a glimps of him beside me.i'll be contented. ^_^

I have a new friend again.Hah..almost everyday i know someone.Can't helped it,i'm just to0 friendly..haaa..bleah =x... well back again! His name is Jia Yi ,well erm..a rather pathetic guy i should say.Don't have any sense of possitive-ness ..Gosh..how to move on? wake Up brother!! Find ways or any ,means to get out of one trial to another..why worry so much? just let nature takes it's course.alright? believe it will be a better day for you tomorrow alright? i kNow you can do it..

Signing Out..take CarE!

fIrsT tIme..

2004-11-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

Okie..this is mY first time using bLogSpot..and hmMm..wannA jUsT try out..heez